What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[a3a2]

I am....content.

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

sick :sick:

 

[Philippa]

zonked. I think I must have processed a lot while I slept, because I woke up feeling like I'd been sleeping for a few years.

 

[CraftyCath]

I feel a bit better today, coming to terms with the in-laws deception and letting them go from my life. It's hard to do but I will be much better from it.

I only want to be around people who are content to allow me to be ME.:ninja:

I'm a bit numb and feeling trapped still but I'm sure it will pass.

 

[ms spock]

I don't think verbal abuse is something one can charge someone for, at least not in Australia?

Depends if it was a threat, libel or something else I forget.

 

[ms spock]

Content!

 

[Tinyflame]

I feel a whole mixed bag of emotions today:

- Happy and a bit overwhelmed it's Easter. Thankful and grateful. For what it means, and for so much.
-Very very grateful. :inlove:
And (but) on a 'ptsd note', can recall when making it to Easter itself was miraculous. Because of SI and such. So thankful and a bit in awe. And also ashamed.

-Thankful for family but in trepidation for when they will arrive. And a bit of fear for what tonight will hold.

-Anxious and wound up but exhausted.

-Disappointed in what I didn't accomplish. :(

-Dreading not smoking but trying to be optimistic.

-Hating everything about PTSD. Wishing I were 'something' else, or 'someone' else- stronger, kinder, less-selfish, more 'normal'. Hate how it affects your body, mind, heart and soul.

-Wanting to isolate but knowing it's wrong.

-Vulnerable and at the mercy of ptsd. Wishing I didn't end up the way I 'am'. But also tired of 'who' or how I am.

-Recognizing much is fear, lack of self-acceptance or self-worth, 'flight' tendency. Or, at least trying to convince myself that is some of the basis for feeling stripped.

-Grateful and happy, happier for others. In a word, happy and sad- go figure. :confused:
Still wishing I could isolate!

-Evidently long-winded (-Sorry! :( ) as I can't find the words, lol.

 

[Tinyflame]

Realizing in my heart, it's likely a ptsd-perspective that colors this moment, tells you not to trust, not to have hope, not to believe, to doubt, to fear, to 'flee'. "Self-allergic-rejection", really, it feels like.

I hope I can trust what others say, when I can't quite feel it myself.
I guess that's just fear and no particular confidence in my own situation or abilities.
I still feel like a turtle without a shell. In a buffalo stampede.

The upside is, I'm sorry for venting, "whine-and-cheese"- hope everyone has a Terrific Easter.. chocolate for breakfast. :p
Hugs for all, especially who need them, and a Joyous Spring Day to all. :inlove:

 

[QuietLight]

I feel anxious
walled in
weak
lost
tearful
out of control

 

[Darrell P.]

I feel ok but a little fustrated and hurt because I had to get rid of my sexual Trauma PTSD Theraptist because she did not believe in me or supported me I have my depression and Psyhriatrist for support now.

 

[Loveneverfails]

I feel tired, uneasy, anxious and stubbornly determined.

 

[Tinyflame]

Something just occurred to me, though all I've posted is true, I guess I've also been given lots of goodness and kind people in my life, or safe 'alcoves' (though 'home' is not so much so) in my life- 'shell or no shell', help, support, kindness. So for that I'm thankful. And so the rest doesn't really matter. I've been very blessed and privileged, not deserving of it and God knows didn't look for it or think such a thing was possible.

Actually, I've had a beautiful Easter! It's just fear of this afternoon/ tonight. :(

Hope and kindness and gentleness, forgiveness and such are very fragile, and not common, :( , it's hard to hang on to the feeling.

I guess I have to get courage and faith and trust, trust it's even possible to have a new start.