What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[a3a2]

I was triggered yesterday. The first time in a really long time. I am dealing with it, though, and I am proud of that. I am tired, a little afraid of going to sleep, disappointed that the hyper-vigilance re-appeared, hopeful that I will completely recover from this trigger soon, and it will be nothing but a tiny blip on my radar.

 

[Lionheart]

It is a rainy day and I am really groggy this morning. I can't seem to get myself to wake up. It's as if I am still in a dream-state, so I may be slow to respond to posts, but other than that, I am feeling pretty good. I think it is going to be a good day. I feel happy, loved, and supported.
:hug:
Hugs for all,
Lion

 

[Philippa]

Better than I was, with the help of my princess kitty.

 

[Traumagirl]

I feel lonely today. I'm in the room with my husband and three noisy children and I feel lonely. I also feel sad, desperate, ashamed, filthy, angry, hopeless, heavy-hearted and disgusted. At least I'm being honest this morning.

 

[KP the nut]

I think KP mean 'pissed as a newt'...in other words...KP is drunk as a skunk. I, on the other hand, am sober as a jay.

KP is now sober as a judge :whistling:.

I'm feeling fine. The sun is shining and I'm taking the rest of the day off and I will go and sit in the garden with my Kindle.

A friend is coming to spend the night with us tonight. He is over from South Africa and it will be lovely to see him. We will go to a pub next to the river for supper.

(((HUGS)))

 

[Philippa]

I feel quite bitter thinking back on that time in my life when I was at my worst and my parents wanted me to get a job! I was suicidal and all they cared about was me being a good little worker bee. Are people THAT dumb?

I'm speaking to my mother again, and lots of time has passed, but the way she behaved during that time, was just horrible and heinous. I can't quite forgive her yet. I'm not in that state anymore and so much time has passed, so there isn't much use in holding onto it...but the fact that neither of them even considered once in that whole period of time, that I was actually in real pain and distress...really bugs the crap out of me.

How can I ever look at her the same and wipe the slate clean? I cannot pretend it never happened. She may have changed for the better now, and is not in the same stressful life she was in back then, but that doesn't mean she is any different to how she was. I'm feeling distrustful of her right now. I want to be careful that I do not set myself up for more of the same in the future.

 

[p-no]

(((Traumagirl)))

 

[p-no]

I feel normal, life being life. I'm good.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I was feeling anxiety so I took my zannax. It is starting to kick in. I am going to my daughters house today to celebrate Labor Day with her and her family, so I am feeling happy about that. I look forward to that. So I am feeling pretty good about that.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am devasted. My daughter is sick so I am not going over to her house today. I am so dissappointed and sad. It will be a normal day around here. I sure wish this had not happened. I will have to be very creative and figure out what I can do. I am feeling so sorry for myself now. I hate this when it happens.

 

[Ben223]

I feel Anxious and uncertain. I went driving just looking for trouble in bad areas. I don't know why I do this but I find when I'm feeling poor that this occurs. I then start dwelling on the past and then plotting....not good. My stomach hurts, and I get a headache...then what...I want to drink but have severely cut that down over the past year since that caused major problems. Go home and watch TV and watch cops acting stupid with low security of themselves and their weapon....it all just circles again.

 

[Ben223]

The term "hyper vigilance" that is so spot on. I see things as if they are in slow motion sometimes, and I will have fast reaction times that are unlike my normal slow approach to life. Interesting.