What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[p-no]

The term "hyper vigilance" that is so spot on. I see things as if they are in slow motion sometimes, and I will have fast reaction times that are unlike my normal slow approach to life. Interesting.

Same here, Ben. The slow motion happens in times of the highest stress. I am extremly good then and lack functionality in times when life is normal.

Hope you'll feel better soon. Although I don't know you, I just hope you will be able to find a way not to go looking for trouble anywhere. Life is better without.[DOUBLEPOST=1346703419][/DOUBLEPOST]

I am devasted.

I feel sorry for you, dear Gizmo. (((BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG HUGS)))

 

[Ben223]

One thing that I have never been able to understand, is why members of my agency, stated that I wasn't present for certain experiences that I witnessed. This questioning of my location at times that I know I was and what happened has caused the following....I now have to deal with not knowing what has really happened in my life. I have been told that I didn't see what I saw, and I didn't smell what I smelled so now. This caused me to be able to look deeply at a situation and analyze it and then build it into my memory as if I was there, to create a new stimulus. I am pretty sure that these new ones were not real situations, but they have come to be part of me and I have visions of them even though the vision is just my interpetation of the information that I received about the stimulus. It's odd... that I know.

 

[system victim 2012]

confused
tired
stagnant
numb
dead
dazed
nervous
dirty

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I spent along time jounaling about my fears and what ifs. I am feeling so much better now. I will rebuild my life starting with therapy for me. Hopefully I will get resources from that. I will take baby steps but I cannot continue to go on the way I have.

I will have to get tough with my husband and insist on certain things. Although he is very sick today, he is having a good day and has not mentioned money. Who knows what tommorow will bring.

I am feeling one hundred percent better. By the way, thanks Prime-no for the hugs. I really needed them this morning. Today is going by fast. I will rebuild my life one baby step at a time.

 

[Charmedone]

I'm feeling lost lol I know I got off the bus at the right place but can't remember where to go now ? I was only here yesterday and I know the memory of where to go is there but I can't access it my mind is a blank!!!

 

[goingonhope]

Spiritual, competent, accomplished!

And, ...oblivious to much, plus accepting of still other - pain today.

Scared, courageous, risk-taking and pleased.

Now at this hr. - Powerless yet courageous, and with alot wishful ...and enough hopeful.

Eager.

Perhaps foolish.

But, certainly persistent.

 

[Philippa]

I feel really hurt, and mad. My mother called before and tried to tell me in her own way that I'm pathetic and should just forgive and forget and lets all hug, and I feel that she only told me what I wanted to hear at the time to get me to think she was serious about changing...but I don't think she is...and I KNOW he will never change for me.

I feel emotionally manipulated, and that she has once again made their needs more important than my own.

 

[Traumagirl]

I am feeling lonely today. I also feel helpless and upset. I hope the day gets better.

 

[Philippa]

Upset right now. I feel like I just want to curl up and bawl my eyes out...but I know it's not gonna come out.

 

[Philippa]

((Hugs for us traumagirl))

 

[Jen93]

I am still trying to recuperate from the horrible long weekend. Not good.

I am feeling nervous-class starts on Thursday and I haven't go the books I need. I hope they come today.

I still feel sad, sick, lonely, hurt, abandoned. Should be used to feeling this way by now. But this weekend scared me.

 

[Queen Boudica]

Feel so alone, scared and doomed. My back is terrible again, I went to the chiro, my chiro is on maternity leave and the new one put me in a lot more pain and I feel worse now. If I sit or lie I can hardly pull myself up now and I am in pain all the time.

I don't feel like therapy is helping. I went today and feel really let down. I tried to talk about a whole load of issues last week which was really difficult and then we ran out of time and he said we would cover the stuff this week but this week it is like I never said anything and back to dealing with day to day stuff. Don't get how I am ever going to get out of this mess. I feel so depressed, lacking in confidence, self-worth, image. These are all the issues that hold me back and yet we never deal with them and when I hint at them I just feel like they are ignored. Like ignore them and they will go away. Well they are not going away they never go away, I've had them for years and tried to overcome them and it doesn't work and I can't function like this. That is why I wanted therapy but somehow I must have been delusional. Somehow I thought I could manage on my own with 3 kids and complex trauma if I got the right help, I'd be able to work and give my kids a good life. But there is no right help, it is help yourself and that is impossible for me in this state. End of rant.