What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Charmedone]

*hugs*

 

[Shellbell]

I am feeling like I am losing grip on trying to remain positive about this all working out okay in the end. I have an overwhelming sense of fear it is going to take a lot of painful therapy to sort out the distruction caused in my past. Starting to realise just how messed up I am. And starting to feel the full force of how mental illness causes isolation and loneliness.

Really wishing i could just go back to the me that was coping well 3 years ago. The me that was in complete denial, but happy most of the time.

 

[KP the nut]

(((HUGS))) everyone.

I feel more positive this morning. A weekend relaxing with H was just what I needed.

Today, is back to our weekly routine. I feel pleased I have my car today and that I was able to take my usual lady to and from her day centre.

I feel like pampering myself, so I will go and have a girlie shower - body scrub, scented lotion, the works. Because, hey, get this, I deserve it :angelic:.

 

[Philippa]

It's scary shellbell. You're supported here though.

I think I'm in a similar space. Somewhat conscious and somewhat in denial.

 

[intothelight]

(((Philippa))) (((Charmedone))) (((Shellbell))) (((Hugs))) to all that need them

Feeling a bit stronger today. I have been so bad since last Tuesday that it is really hard to explain. A lot of it is my own fault as I have pushed and pushed beyond physical and psychological limits.

Trying to find a new balance because my life is literally depending on it. I am so confused, super anxious, super fearful and super depressed and cycling so fast that it is hard to get my feet back under me. I am going back to basics and am focusing on what is good.

I can't keep having thoughts of just wanting to give up when it is going to take every once of drive to fight the cancer. Maybe it is just being so tired of fighting for everything and trying to keep things together to the degree that I have that makes it so difficult now. I am physically, mentally and spiritually at the end of the rope and once again I find myself clinging.

Can't afford to cling, I need to be walking on solid ground. Finding my solid ground is the primary goal.

 

[Srain]

((((((((((((((((Deb))))))))))))))))

I woke up feeling MUCH better this morning and managed to get back out for a walk for the first time since we got home. I am struggling with anxiety and some uncertainty as my husband goes back to work and they are at the point of pushing him again like last year.

I was in denial last week but when he got a text yesterday morning it all came crashing down inside of me like a cold wall of water. All I can do trust that each step we have taken is for the good and each one are taking will work out for the best. I am attempting to pull away from the critical thinking about myself and more towards positive action today. Before I would immediately go hole up in panic and dread with SI thoughts drowning me but seeing as I tried to prepare for this prior to our trip I feel in a somewhat better position plus I got a phone call from an old friend first thing this morning so yeah! :)

I've got calls to make and anxiety to push aside. Breathe....

Hugs to all who are struggling today.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I woke up a little negative and journaled. I am feeling better and more positive. I will keep on being positive. I have a strange week, some of it not doing much and some of it being busy. I am feeling good today. I am very happy about that.

 

[Sammy]

Relaxed. Happy. Blessed. It is a good day. :)

 

[Charmedone]

I'm feeling loved, in love, happy, safe, sicky at the thought of how much Jake has eaten today :), giggly, blessed and like I'm about to pass out from exhaustion, I am also feeling sad for a friend and like I want to do something but don't know what can be done.

 

[Philippa]

Relief, and full from eating finally.

 

[Lionheart]

I feel lonely, unwanted and old/tired. I don't want to live alone anymore. It seems that everyone has a husband/wife or sig. other except for me. I know they don't, but it seems that way when I feel like this. I am hoping the day will get better as it progresses. At least the sun is out and we're having some nice fall weather. Got my fingers crossed that I will feel better soon.

((((((Hugs for all who are struggling today))))))))

 

[Philippa]

Bitter, grief, sadness, twisted cavernous corruption. Oh, and did I mention ANGRY.