What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Bubba]

It's been a while since I've been here - but I just felt the need to come back today.

Today I feel relaxed, hopeful, scared - a weird combination, I know.

I am visiting a guy that I met almost 3 months ago online. He lives 8 hours away from me. Neither of us were looking to meet someone. We met on a penpal website. I was looking for human contact (non-PTSD related :)) and he was looking for international penpals for research for the class he teaches. We connected immediately and things are moving quickly.

So I feel relaxed and hopeful, because so far this week with him has been wonderful. I've never felt so accepted in my whole life. There is no pressure. And we are so much alike. I am scared because I am afraid of what to tell my family. I know they will think this is too soon - but how do you stop your heart? He is not pushing me in any way. He said he will wait however long it takes - I just don't want to take too long. Life is too short and we are both getting older. My children are both grown - so all I have is "me" now to worry about.

 

[Cynsoul]

Bubba - Just as you said, all you have now is "you" to worry about. Go with what feels right and makes you happy. I can really only see a family who cares being concerned with the security of meeting someone online. However, I'm sure the people with your best interests in mind will support you, if not from the beginning then when their worries are quelled, and those who don't, that's their problem not yours. I'm happy for you!

 

[JustBe]

Relieved and thankful that my Disability application was approved.


I'm also feeling sad and rather helpless that all I can give to all of you who are hurting today is a cyber (((hug))) and the knowledge that my hopes and thoughts are with you.

(I can't even post a cute photo)

 

[p-no]

Desperate maybe most of all. I took a decision with regard to a man and it's a no. Enforcing that no takes a lot of my strength. My dear friend's cancer and her little son dealing with it takes a lot of my strength also. It's too much and there seems to be nothing I can do. I'm scared too. History seems to repeat itself. I hope I can stay strong with regard to my own decision. I hope I will be okay working till Thursday inclusively. I have started counting down the time left until I have a day off Friday. I hate this helplessness and the way things keep repeating in my life. I feel scared not seeing little Jay growing up. I feel egoistic for feeling this way.

 

[goingonhope]

I am confronted daily with one large obstacle and/or responsibility after the next, (a number of these, at this time insurmountable), and I've been sick, run down and I'm feeling just absolutely exhausted. :wacky:

 

[Springer80]

Desperate maybe most of all.... I hate this helplessness and the way things keep repeating in my life.... I feel egoistic for feeling this way.

(((((((((P-no))))))))))

Hi Please don't feel egoistical. You have loads on your plate. It's normal to worry and want to talk about problems. :):hug:

 

[KP the nut]

I'm still feeling so out of sorts. I just want to destroy something, to shout 'why the F*ck' bother. I feel so angry. I feel so negative.

Why can't everyone just f*ck off and leave me the hell alone.

 

[Froggie]

Hummungus ((((:hug:)))) and positive vibes for all those who need them.

(((((gizmo))))), maybe you may need to see a doctor for that allergy to the hair dye. It should have gone away with those counter meds. Try making a rinse with baking soda and see if that helps.

 

[Whitneys story]

Just one of those days. Brake light went out on my car sunday. Went to local parts store and replaced bulb. Having major anxiety knowing I am driving to the ocean on wed. I got an appointment for today, they drove me home while they were working on the car.

I had planned on researching the photo dilema on the internet. When I get online I get a pop up from service provider. Your 1 day past due. On auto pay almost 2 yrs.

I do the one time pay, it's not working. I connect to the chat and ask someone to check into the problem. I am told every canned response imaginable. I have them hold, call my bank who says they have not attempted a payment. No my balance is fine.

After 3 agents, 1 supervisor they give me the wrong phone number to call their account dept. It has now been 4 hours of canned response and now to a new supervisor, who gives me the same wrong number. She digs around and gives me another. In the middle of all this I am thinking I will see if my card works.

Run and make a donation and it goes through. From AU to Us in moments I have recieved confirmation from bank and email from Paypal. I phone the new number and in seconds the gent checks my account. Yes we are having issues with our system, no we will not cut off your service. I go back to chat to make a complaint, the super tells me my bank has a problem! And I wonder why I have a headache, stiff neck and ready to explode. Again it is not me!

The repair shop calls, they will be by shortly to pick me up! My brake light is fixed, I don't have to drive with hand signals. The gal says it will be $100 less than I was quoted. I said are you sure I don't see any parts listed. Ooops, and thanks for your honesty. The whole light assembly had to be replaced and they fixed the cyclops!

I was not about to ask, this day is not going to ruin the first real vacation I have had in many years. Hugs for all, Whitney

 

[JustBe]

I feel Rested! I actually slept through the night!

Whitney, I hope you have a lovely Vacation

 

[intothelight]

(((Hugs))) to all that need them. :hug:

Feeling good today and glad that I wrote down a lot of my worries. Tend to keep them bottled up and put on a "strong" face. Talked to a friend yesterday that gave me some good ideas. :)

Ready to "rock" the day and keep tying up loose ends. Feeling physically stronger each day and will take advantage of it before the next round.

 

[Traumagirl]

I feel frustrated today. I'm having difficulty being healthy and that aggravates my PTSD something awful. It makes me sooooooo overemotional. I just want to crawl under the bed and hide. Of course when I'm eating healthy, I don't want to get out of bed in the first place. UGH!!!!!!!!!!