I feel disappointed. I wanted to have lunch with S. today and "of course" someone who had an appointment with me came late (by 45 minutes I may add...) and then it took too long and I missed lunch altogether. Now I don't want to leave the office. :D
Anyway, what I also feel is that things may be going at least okay but maybe even very well, even with me not getting that lunch and leaving now. When I was still a Christian, there was a song I really liked, and that often helps me feel better, because a line of it is so true: Sometimes God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. This has been true often in my life. Now I feel some joy about going home to see my dad and be pampered a bit with good, healthy food and fun, hugs, etc.