What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Abstract]

Very spacey and at the same times anxious to the point where I have the creepy crawlies (feels like bugs). Ok though.

 

[Cufflinks]

Overworked, stressed, in shock, sometimes digusted, exhausted, routinely entirely too fed up with this world, hopeful for better days, doubtful.

Wow. A bad day (a typical day).

HUGS

 

[Cufflinks]

A complicated day today.

This afternoon I was invited to a 50th Birthday party. It was fab and I met some really nice people. I was fine until somebody asked me if I enjoyed Christmas. Before I knew it, the divorce and the Falklands and PTSD all came out and I was a bit of a mess.

The emotions are a reminder that this stuff is still there and why I want to see Combat Stress to get it back where it belongs.

 

[Violet03]

(((Cufflinks))) I feel like I can relate to you today. I have been fighting suicidal thoughts/feelings all week. Today I started off feeling guarded, tired, and worthless. Then, I was talking to an old friend and they asked me a question that triggered a flashback. It's a reminder all this stuff is still here to remind me how damaged I am.

Now, I feel exhausted, numb, still worthless, and an overwhelming desire to disappear. At least the intense pain, hurt, and confusion I felt from the flashback is gone. Numb is much more comfortable. The roller coaster PTSD takes me on is sometimes too much to deal with. It's harder when I feel alone.

 

[Cufflinks]

(((Cufflinks))) I feel like I can relate to you today.

I find myself stopping for a second or two to swallow the feelings and ask people to bear with me. I explain it's just part of the issue and to give me a second or to to get myself together. They want to understand but can see the emotions and realize that what I'm saying has value. Those that care will care.

 

[GreenFrog2]

Those that care will care.

How true Cufflinks! :hug:

 

[timid_flower]

I feel relaxed tonight.

Hugs to everyone that needs one. :hug:

 

[GreenFrog2]

I appreciate you hug timid-flower, and here is one for you: :hug:

I am feeling frightened, again! I spent much of yesterday telling myself that "I don't need to be frightened anymore" and for awhile it worked. I was tired but pretty calm all evening, which was really nice. But woke up this morning, after a good nights sleep, went for a walk and then started to do some work. I'm working at home today, but already frazzled due to other people's mistakes - just routine human error, but giving me panic attacks!

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I'm feeling really anxious. I was working on my PTSD workbook. My therapist gave it to me and told me to do as much work as I was comfortable doing. I started feeling hesitant and resistant but, I figured that's going to happen so keep going.

Then memories started flashing in my head like a bad movie. I curled up and closed my eyes and tried to push the memories back down before I felt a surge of adrenaline.

And then my cellphone rang with an unavailable number which ended up scaring me. Naturally I answered it and it was a woman speaking a foreign language. Now I'm an anxious shaky mess :(. Of course a wrong number would throw me into a tailspin. Ugh.

 

[Philippa]

Feeling buzzed to be off to play with friends for new years...and nurturing our inner child at the same time. Lots of silliness is imminent.

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling good. I have a really good, indepth conversation last night with a good friend.

 

[Sailorgal]

I wanted to kill the Mac earlier....actually it was some of these websites where I was applying for. Stupid glitches!

Anyhow, I pushed through and feel better doing them. I guess a sense of accomplishment? Getting the job would be even more dandy!