What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Philippa]

I feel like I've been somewhat productive today. I cleaned all my clothes and sheets and doona cover and let the pillows and doona sanitize on the line in the hot sun for a few hours, so that feels good, to have clean sheets.

I feel my age though. That's not bad, but it does make me take stock of the things I still have not yet started, like all the creative projects I've been wanting to get going on for years, and still cannot seem to find the motivation, or know where to even start, so I just put it off, and that makes me feel like i am wasting my precious time...especially when I then fart around on the computer checking facebook and stuff like that.

I feel sweaty and unable to really get cool, even with the fan on. I feel a little claustrophobic but it's too hot to go outside. I still haven't gone to the phone booth to call my brother, and I'm sure he is upset that I didn't call for his birthday. I'm trying to figure out if I really care though? I feel a bit diabolical to admit that I don't...much.

I'm happy that the boss has given me the day off saturday so I can be with my real family of friends, and be in their film clip for a music video. It's gonna be so fun and I'm looking forward to dressing up and seeing them all. I am worried that the boss is going to tell me I have to work wednesday instead, and I will have to tell her I cannot as I have a ticket to see Tomahawk that evening, which I paid nearly three times the amount of it's worth on ebay, and am not missing it for anything. I will quit if she makes a fuss...that is how much I love this band.

 

[Traumagirl]

I'm feeling exhausted today even though I've had enough sleep. I'm also feeling depressed.

Hugs to anyone who needs one.

 

[FaerieJayne]

fragile, hurt, tearful, frightened, alone, self hatred, broken.

 

[MagiLisu]

Numb and restless - I am doing better but I wouldn't say I am doing OK.

I think I am back in limbo:unsure:

 

[amethist]

Full of cold and just want to curl up with a hot drink and a cuddly blanket.

 

[KP the nut]

curl up with a hot drink and a cuddly blanket.

KP sends hot drinks, chicken soup and warm blankies to Amethist.

I'm feeling happy and content. It is a lovely Spring day. I had to go out in the car, I had some relaxing music on, the sky was blue, the sun was shining, I saw snowdrops and baby lambs.

For today, life is good.

(((HUGS)))

 

[littlelostchild]

Hugs to everyone who needs it.

I am feeling anxious today and have an awful feeling in the pit of my stomach. I have been trying to figure out why and I think it is because my mum left me a message on the machine yesterday. She wants to know how I am doing and I am not opening that can of worms with her! I always tell her I am fine which is total bs. She knows I see a T once a week. She never used to ring me - I always had to ring her, but about a month ago, she rang me for the first time in ages. She sounded depressed in the message and I really do not want to ring her back and continue to lie, but if I tell the truth it will probably cause her a breakdown. I don't want that either.

I think I am sad too.

 

[littlelostchild]

I am getting overwhelmed - I hate this sh#t.

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling a little tired today.

 

[KP the nut]

I'm feeling relaxed, it has been a good day today.

 

[littlelostchild]

I didn't want to drug myself tonight, but I did - I am sad about that and ashamed. Gravol and Ativan to settle down. This is f%ing hard.

 

[GreenFrog2]

Feeling mostly horrified at the situation I am in and how much of a mess my life is.

A little proud of myself for doing what I can each day to improve things - it's not usually much and I am often ashamed of myself for being so broken.

Trying to feel positive about the future - surly I am still well enough to be able to provide for myself?