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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
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franciemarnie
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I feel content but tired - except for that pesky heart of mine, which is physically sound (no heart condition), but which can feel like it's throbbing out of my chest late at night. I remind myself of our hijacked autonomic system and try to non-judgmentally feel it instead of wildly searching for non-existent causes outside myself in real time. It will settle down.
Promicarus
Silver Member
OK., Solara-Here's honesty...if they're threatening to ban you for venting...that sucks. Really. That's what PTSD sufferers need to do, and if a forum for them won't allow it...then WTF?
I don't have anyone to talk to either, (though I've met someone on this forum, in fact, that has made a night/day difference, in that respect)...but I too don't feel as though I can vent for the most part, either here, or with anyone else in general. I have things to vent about like the fact that my father was a CIA operative, and what that put me through during my childhood. Doesn't exactly make people feel comfortable. Therapists, included.
But honestly--I'd notice and care, if you disappeared. Really. I've appreciated your posts here, you're one of the most regular, honest, and down-to-earth members, in my opinion. Even if it's not always "touchy feely". And I appreciate that, for one.
Don't see the troughs as the average amplitude of the wave. It's tough when you're in one--I know. But if no one cares if you disappear...you just have the wrong people. They're out there. Whether you have to physically move, or "dispositionally move"--they are out there. I, myself, have been told numerous times "You need to find your people. Go find your people." Not the best thing to hear...but honest, and correct. And while few and far between, they're out there. You just have to look, to find them.
I know about the problem of moderators taking issue with posts, though--personally. I got a similar reaction from a moderator when posting to a sister-site (mysexualabuse). People have to protect their "bread and butter"...and it's never easy to realize how far they'll go to do so, I suppose. I'd describe it, but it would probably get me banned. Their "questionable" post was somehow magically erased after I eviscerated it, and the party responsible.
All the best, and thank you, truly, for your participation here, and honesty.
I don't have anyone to talk to either, (though I've met someone on this forum, in fact, that has made a night/day difference, in that respect)...but I too don't feel as though I can vent for the most part, either here, or with anyone else in general. I have things to vent about like the fact that my father was a CIA operative, and what that put me through during my childhood. Doesn't exactly make people feel comfortable. Therapists, included.
But honestly--I'd notice and care, if you disappeared. Really. I've appreciated your posts here, you're one of the most regular, honest, and down-to-earth members, in my opinion. Even if it's not always "touchy feely". And I appreciate that, for one.
Don't see the troughs as the average amplitude of the wave. It's tough when you're in one--I know. But if no one cares if you disappear...you just have the wrong people. They're out there. Whether you have to physically move, or "dispositionally move"--they are out there. I, myself, have been told numerous times "You need to find your people. Go find your people." Not the best thing to hear...but honest, and correct. And while few and far between, they're out there. You just have to look, to find them.
I know about the problem of moderators taking issue with posts, though--personally. I got a similar reaction from a moderator when posting to a sister-site (mysexualabuse). People have to protect their "bread and butter"...and it's never easy to realize how far they'll go to do so, I suppose. I'd describe it, but it would probably get me banned. Their "questionable" post was somehow magically erased after I eviscerated it, and the party responsible.
All the best, and thank you, truly, for your participation here, and honesty.
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ms spock
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Tired
Promicarus
Silver Member
Sometimes the simplest statements are most profound. Thanks Ms. Spock. I'm tired, too.
Waiting for the meds to kick in that help wake me up. Otherwise I am feeling like crawling back into bed. My cold, on the plus side, is getting better. Still congested and a cough, but manageable. Hard to imagine doing anything too physical yet today. But that may just be the meds not working yet.
@Solara - Your post are sometimes very pointed. They are also thoughtful, and can be very caring and empathetic. Personally, I find your directness refreshing. I hope whatever messages you've received about being banned doesn't cause you to retreat entirely. You'd definitely be missed.
As for needing to vent, I think doing so is very important for PTSD sufferers since so many people in our lives don't understand what we go through, and since venting can also expose vulnerabilities. There are a couple of people on myptsd with whom they and I have "personal conversations" - a venue here in which we're able to be open, so just want to throw that out as a suggestion . . .
Drew
As for needing to vent, I think doing so is very important for PTSD sufferers since so many people in our lives don't understand what we go through, and since venting can also expose vulnerabilities. There are a couple of people on myptsd with whom they and I have "personal conversations" - a venue here in which we're able to be open, so just want to throw that out as a suggestion . . .
Drew
I've caught up on rest fairly well after being exhausted, but will still head to bed early tonight so I don't slip backwards. I'm feeling determined to learn, and practice, taking better care of myself.
I met someone online. We're meeting face-to-face today over lunch, and I'm feeling apprehensive, nervous, and giddy. :wideeyed: :eek: :rolleyes:
I met someone online. We're meeting face-to-face today over lunch, and I'm feeling apprehensive, nervous, and giddy. :wideeyed: :eek: :rolleyes:
franciemarnie
Diamond Member
Woke with childhood nausea, which is fear and sadness I think. Choosing not to plug into it, or rather feel it but not act on it. Adrenalin. Going to walk and walk. That helps move it thru.
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EverOnly358
Platinum Member
What am I feeling? :cautious:
Jeez... I haven't the slightest idea. I really sometimes hate this question. I'm feeling okay, but also a little out of sorts, I'm trying to be happy or content or whatever... but there's part of me that feels like she's not getting a say. That's all so confusing. I guess I'm confused. I've spent my whole life always trying to do the right thing. Sure, sure, I screw up A LOT, but the basis for my actions has always been the same... I am a good girl. Gah! Whatever. I'm feeling nutty and out of sorts this morning (afternoon) whatever! :confused:
The good news is that my sore throat is mostly gone. Now I'm going to take @franciemarnie's advice and drink lots and lots of water. I haven't been getting enough the past few days because of that sore throat. I'm glad to be feeling somewhat better. :joyful:
Thanks for everyone's get well wishes and encouragement. I truly appreciate it! :D
Jeez... I haven't the slightest idea. I really sometimes hate this question. I'm feeling okay, but also a little out of sorts, I'm trying to be happy or content or whatever... but there's part of me that feels like she's not getting a say. That's all so confusing. I guess I'm confused. I've spent my whole life always trying to do the right thing. Sure, sure, I screw up A LOT, but the basis for my actions has always been the same... I am a good girl. Gah! Whatever. I'm feeling nutty and out of sorts this morning (afternoon) whatever! :confused:
The good news is that my sore throat is mostly gone. Now I'm going to take @franciemarnie's advice and drink lots and lots of water. I haven't been getting enough the past few days because of that sore throat. I'm glad to be feeling somewhat better. :joyful:
Thanks for everyone's get well wishes and encouragement. I truly appreciate it! :D
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