What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Deleted member 12723]

Even though it is cloudy and cold outside, I have been accomplishing thing around here. I am having a good day again. I keep on having more and more good days since my husband died last year. It is true, time does heal deep wounds. I have a breakfast date with two friends that I am looking forwards to. All is well here today. Hugs to all that need them.

 

[KP the nut]

I feel I am crashing a little tonight. I think I have been running on adrenaline so it isn't surprising. I've asked if a volunteer can cover the office in the morning. I feel I need a little time.

 

[franciemarnie]

Rested from a nap. Peaceful. Van Morrison's Have I Told You Lately in my head when I woke.

 

[roaminggnome]

Calmer after an anxiety filled morning. I was on the verge of a panic attack and had to take medication. If this overwhelming anxiety is still here tomorrow I'm calling my therapist and my psychiatrist's nurse. Maybe they can help.

 

[ms spock]

I was recalled for 2 reasons. Firstly the lump which I had felt and secondly white spots on the mammogram. The hospital staff were amazing, very caring and professional. I had another mammogram and then went in to see the doctor. He talked me through the white spots which are calcifications. Then he examined me and did an ultrasound.

Oh you are doing so well.

I am so glad you are hearing cautiously optimistic news at this stage, that sounds.

I don't know if I could have stood if it if I had to come back because the X-Ray machine wasn't working.

Give yourself time to decompress @KP the nut.

 

[ms spock]

Just for today I am feeling creative and full of spunkiness and a vitality.

Starting My 10,000 hour challenge today. You know genius is 10,000 hours and a bit of luck. So if I invest 10,000 hours in my healing from PTSD Complex Trauma. Not planning on becoming a genius (there all ready *giggles) but planning on achieving competency.

I am feeling like I want to change my focus.

 

[KP the nut]

I don't know if I could have stood if it if I had to come back because the X-Ray machine wasn't working.

Actually the staff were I think a little surprised that I didn't flip out. I do try to let things like that get to me. If I'd gotten upset or cross it wouldn't have fixed the machine and it would have stressed me out even more.

Now though, the staff think I'm really nice. It would have been counter productive having a go at them as it isn't their fault. Okay, waiting another week for the biopsy and then another week for the results isn't great, but these things happen.

I'm feeling drained. The lump I can deal with, the biopsy site is looking fine and very little pain. However I am upset that after 4 years of hard work. The crash is back to haunt me in the form of breast calcification.

 

[ms spock]

I had a great swim today for about an hour and half. I also went out with friends and had a great two hours.

 

[ms spock]

Actually the staff were I think a little surprised that I didn't flip out. I do try to let things like that get to me.

Ah you did well under stress.

 

[Lionheart]

I am feeling sad and lonely. I don't know if it's because we are coming up on Valentines day or simply the fact that I have no "significant other" in my life, but the words to a song keep going through my mind....

....To quote Karen Carpenter, "The hardest thing I've ever done is to keep believing that there's someone in this crazy world for me." Well, probably not the hardest thing I've ever done, but it is kinda tough after so many years alone.

I've been in one brief relationship in the past decade and I am beginning to think there is something seriously wrong with me, but I suppose that is a topic for an entirely different thread. ;)

 

[Britt.f7]

Another day of wondering when I can sleep. I really can't sleep, during the day, because of the adderall but that doesn't stop me from laying down. I would like to feel differently. I would like to wake up wondering what I am doing today, and planning for it, instead of wondering when I can get my next sleep fix. Oh well, I'll discuss that with the nurse practitioner today(though I want to cancel).

 

[mamachick]

Feeling very sad and empty. Angry and tired. Drained and unloved.