What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Dylan]

Better day for me today...

While doing my morning "feelings check" and "emotional house cleaning" I realized, with a start, that I was trying to hold two opposing states (helpless self-pity and response-ABLE, present, adult). No wonder it felt like a war...the battle between my old wiring and new is intense and furious right now.

I also realized that it's not (necessarily) my job in and of itself that I hate, but the pain of the anxiety and insecurity I feel around my work and what my co-workers think of me. Now THAT I can begin to work on.

-D

 

[fin]

I feel overwhelmed today...well it didnt start out like that but has got to that point as the day has gone on its 9.20 pm here and I feel like I have had enough...

it feels....well....it feels like no matter what I do it makes no odds at the moment.

I know I cant do this alone..I just can't. its not me putting up excuses I cant do this alone.

I feel overwhelmed...I take steps great giant steps forward and then ...well it makes no odds.

I really want to be able to trust the people that are supposed to be helping...and they keep blowing me out. I feel let down.

And that makes me worried that I am trusting all the wrong people completely.

confused, disapointed, troubled, frustrated, really very lonely and vulnerable and afraid.


~fin

 

[cragger65]

Dylan, that's my day too. The battle - I think I got myself back on the right side of the line today. Cheers to you.

Sounds like a struggle, Fin. Sometimes if I'm stuck in the middle, I have to decide which way to go for right now. Am I closer to lying down and getting rest, to fight another day, or can I kick it up and go for a walk. Hang in there, hon.

I feel like I'm finally turning this boat around today. Got sucked down, and wallowing around. So, yanked up the boot-straps and went for a power walk. Then saw T, then played some guitar. I feel better.

 

[fin]

oh craggs... many thanks again. I am so glad to hear that you are playing your guitar again and that bootstraps or not you are feeling better.
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ok today...
frustrated, hurt, and very vulnerable.

but I am not giving up today.......
~fin

 

[Tinyflame]

Tentatively hopeful; scared; a bit skitterish; thankful.

 

[A-RON]

Fffuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Mina]

I am actually excited tonight! A band I really like is playing a show downtown tonight, so I'm headed there shortly. Now I just have to figure out what outfit says "don't even TRY to talk to me..." lol :smile:

 

[cragger65]

Feeling positive today. Relieved to have week long funk ending. I feel mostly at peace, centered, present. And even a little hopeful for me. Grateful.

 

[2notbedefeated]

frustrated with myself and circumstances
Don't want to be a "parent" anymore; mommy yes, but parental "parole" no thanks
Afraid my husband will not find a job and wwe will have to move
annoyed that I feel physcially miserable stuggling with chronic fatigue syndrome
Detached, distant, lonely
unloveable, incapable, incompetent
a cold dead body just walking around occupying space, but not accomplish anything
confused, off center
Feel horrible memmory is trying to break through surface, do I let it come or not
One positive - I made to the end of the day, I cooked a deceit meal, fot myself out of the house.

 

[cragger65]

Had another positive day. Good night's sleep, good session in nuero-feedback (reminded of my over-achiever addiction getting in the way). Good walk, lots of guitar time. Good. Positive. Hopeful today.

 

[fin]

it is just so good to hear good news....its like it is mynews hearing that others are doing good.
its like I am living and doing good vicariously
YaY all here- bloody brilliant

 

[2notbedefeated]

Apprenhensive
Trying to be positive
Sad, though
out of touch
anxious