What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[goingonhope]

This Morning til Now, .........

..........I'm curious as to how long feeling all this will last.

I'm feeling like ka' ka',
stomach aching,
mind racing,
body riddled with anxiety
fears monopolizing me,
trapped,
stuck,
unworthy,
angry with myself,
agitated,
frustrated,
irritable,
physically achey,
plain angry,
hurt,
depreciated,
scared,
though unable to pinpoint from where, some flickering hopes and faith in the impossible.

 

[fin]

lost, I am feeling lost.
weak and afraid and lost
and tired

 

[cragger65]

Bloody PISSED!!!!!!!! I told my "financial guy" REPEATEDLY that the market is tanking I want OUT. Of course, he's a polished little weasel with "all the answers" and talked me out of it each time. Now I'm down a HUGE chunk of my savings, and have decided to put my money in something safer for now. THREE F**KING WEEKS I've been chasing this littl asshole down, hearing one excuse after another from him, including out and out LIES and scare tactics to get me to stay with him. I hear his voice on my machine, and my blood pressure immediately soars through the f*&king roof and I want to strangle him. cs-ing little weasel.

What's the average penalty for killing an investor. For lawyers, insurance and investment scammers, it should be a free lunch, IMO.

 

[Luthien]

Wow Dave, sorry to hear about that. I think I'd be reacting much the same way.

I'm feeling very tired...you know when you hit the point that everything is funny?? Too bad I wasn't at that point earlier when posing in other threads...lol.

I'm happy that my brother is visiting. I've missed him A LOT.

I'm also feeling aprehensive about giving my mom her b-day present tomorrow. I made her some placemats...quilt style, but now that I am looking at them again, I don't know what I was thinking when I made them 'cause they're hideous. LOL.

I'm using sleep deprivation as my excuse if they go down as badly as I anticipate.

 

[cragger65]

Maybe they're just looking that way cause you're tired. I'm sure they are beautiful. The "hideous" made me laugh, though :)

 

[Luthien]

No, they were just as ugly yesterday, and I was well rested at the time...I just don't know what I was thinking. I'll take a pic later and post it. It's worth the laugh

My only saving grace is that my brother bought her a lemon shaped teapot, and then forgot the lid at his home which is 7 hours away...so it is even more ridiculous then my gift. :) Maybe I'll take a pic of it too, it would have been cute with the lid.

 

[Mina]

I am actually feeling at least okay right now! On the positive side of the spectrum, at least. Today was a bit of a drag, but nothing craptacular at work - I just didn't want to be there. Now it's the weekend, and I'm about to go to the store and then cook up a nice dinner. I enjoy cooking, so that plus some good classical music sounds like a pleasant way to spend my evening. :smile:

 

[Mahtalat]

Well I don't feel anything, I feel kinda neutral, like you know when you're existing, just existing but kinda like in the moment and everything feels weird because you're just existing and don't feel overly happy or sad, but you're not depressed or anything...you're just...alive, existing, kinda...that's how I feel right now. Maybe the word is content, but I don't think its that 100%ly. I think the feeling I feel is just called...just existing.

 

[patrick]

Mahtalat,

I know that feeling. It's the story of my life. For me, it's the best it gets. The rest is much worse. It's sort of where I am now, too...and nothing much seems to matter. I sure hope I can make some progress soon, I'm really tired of this manner of living. Been doing it a long, long time.

 

[Mahtalat]

Hey Patrick :). It's great to know someone else understands/knows that feelings! I agree most of the time that IS the best feeling I can expect for this week. Others, I just feel 'content'. Sometimes I get really 'happy' but its generally over the small things that warm my heart (which is a good thing). Right now I really just feel contently warm, and relieved after a really bad (scary) patch last night!

I understand how you feel of getting tired of living feeling that way. I hope you can progress soon as well, but I believe you can do it! You've made it this far Patrick :)

 

[Shamstalat]

Today was one of those days where I was triggered several times. In class, at home. Rough day.

 

[fin]

Tonight I am very tired-emotionally and also somewhat confused.

I am worried about someone else...who I had seen here everyday...or at least every other day...and now have heard nothing or seen nothing of them for about 5 days...
I cant help but worry and because I havent been here very long I dont know if this is their normal pattern.

feel a little bit helpless
Also in some ways stalled ...due to the weather I have not been able to visit one of the places where something happened to me....so frustrated also.

Stressed ....I have been trying to cook for myself more often...well just start cooking again....
I used to love to cook...I have burnt myself more times than I care to admit recently...and cut through my finger the other week....not self harming...just completely distracted while I was preparing something for my dog....and I knew I had cut myself...and I thought oh I'll just finish doing this and then will sort that out!!!! wasnt bad...just wasnt me

I am feeling brave also...today I felt a little brave.

It has to be good that I am feeling more than oh and urgh...yeah I did look at the list of emotions....but I was able to actually acknowledge them ...so that has to be cool YaY me!