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Feeling calm and relaxed but there is a strange feeling in my stomach area that I am having trouble defining, and is uncomfortable. I feel content to some degree.
Am feeling very anxious about Saturday's trip, to visit my dad's grave, on the 16th anniversary of his death. Especially, having the possibility of facing my mom, there. She psychologically abused me, for most of my life, until 2 years ago, when I cut off ties with her.
Feeling like therapy is making a positive difference. I am feeling better able to wade through emotions and get down to rational thoughts. Doesn't help make sense of things, but helps me re-direct my thoughts so I don't need to make sense of things that simply DON'T make sense. Feel like I am no longer running on a hamster wheel of emotion, but have found some solid footing and am actually getting somewhere.
I'm feeling like I am doing time in jail for a crime I didn't commit....okay, that's actually a thought so I suppose I feel ripped off. The long cold months are here and without the sun it seems like such a sad time to me...daggonit that's another thought. Shoot, let's try this again. I feel sad and tired, lonely and ripped off.....
......I guess that works. I may even be a little angry about my present circumstances. I don't like being disabled or isolated, so I guess the feeling I am trying to express is really frustration. That's it..I feel frustrated.
I am feeling pretty good today. I handled and managed a difficult situation with a person and I am coping and facing and dealing very well. Overall I feel peace and contentment.
Feeling better now, after I had this horrible bitch really ho into me on facebook just before. I fought to not let it get to me, as I've already been feeling really upset and burnt out and just making mistakes and not reading things carefully enough, and just having my head bitten off by someone with BPD was the cherry on the cake. I did an exercise that helped me remove all the negativity from the experience and I feel much better.
I'm feeling the whole process of hypervigilance distorted thinking and increased anxiety. I want the thoughts to stop but they just keep coming at me and I feel like I just want to sleep through them. But I know they'll still be there when I wake up in the morning. I'm feeling frustrated and defeated and annoyed. I really hate PTSD.