What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[TK.]

I feel drained. Numb. Distant and disconnected from my surroundings.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I feel tired and very sore today. I'm having a lot of pain muscle pain and nerve pain from spinal issues. Especially the issues in my neck. It's painful to turn my head to the left and it's affecting how much I'm able to use my left arm. I know exactly what the issue is. My appointment with my neurosurgeon is next week.

All of the pain and being tired is making me feel a little down. Not the usual depression and PTSD down just discouraged from dealing with all of this pain for years. It gets emotionally hard sometimes.

 

[Anrish]

I feel tired, exhausted, angry, lost and caught....wild mixture...hurt...

A colleague built a What'sApp group and invited everyone but me to his birthday party...another colleague asked me whether I was also invited and I was really surprised and asked some more. They were all invited but not me...?! We're in the same work group and he sits only two doors away from my office. I went to him and asked him what that was about. He told me that I never showed up when he had invited me before (that was ONCE!). He always has great plans about what to do with the work group and I'm one of the few people who don't go along with all his plans. I don't know...but I was so hurt. I sat in my office and cried and cried and couldn't stop. It just hurt so much.
Luckily, I had a therapy session right after work and my therapist calmed me down again...but still it hurts. I don't feel like I will break down anytime but...there's an uneasy feeling about going to work with that colleague now...

:cry::cry::cry:

 

[VioletButterfly]

I feel freaked out and afraid as I have to talk with my boss tomorrow about what's been going on in the office (she's out of state), and my inability to cope with it physically (allergens). I'll keep the emotions for therapy and keep the earbuds in on full blast with worship music - thank you Hillsong United!

I also feel vulnerable as I had to see my T's colleague today due to what happened yesterday at work. I texted out prayer requests and had two very in-depth conversations about all of it with my friend and my dad. Crying, hysterics - the whole bit. Feel a bit uncomfortable with that, especially with Dad.

Overwhelmed with all that is going on, and the possibility of being unemployed again and what that means financially. I can't manage this work place unless some changes are made. Stressed to the nines!! VB

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am beginning to feel so much better. I got a few things accomplished today and tomorrow my back yard will be all torn up so they can put drains in the yard to prevent the flooding from coming into my house. it will be a mess but I am so grateful for the help.

 

[Spiderallis]

I started getting a feeling I haven't seen enough to know a name for yet, but it crashed into a tidal wave of invalidation and shame. If I had energy left, I might be confused. Everything hurts, I'm eagerly awaiting meds and bed.

 

[Britt.f7]

A bit sad. My son's friend, a seventeen year old boy, is dying from a heart ailment. He needs a transplant and has needed one for some time. Tonight they had a make a wish party. That can't be a good sign. For those that pray on here, please pray for the young man. There is some guilt that while my son is planning his future, this young man is not.

 

[Recovery4Me]

@Britt.f7 Yes, in my prayers for the poor dear. I am so sorry for your grief. (((Big friendship hugs Mom to Mom)))

@Anrish Your coworker is a sorely lacking in office etiquette. (((hugs with hissing at that bafoon))) I hope some of those tears were for his lack of class.:devilish: So just perhaps buy him for Christmas a small book on manners.:rolleyes:

@BlackbirdSinging Sending warmth of respect for your physical pain and praying that there is speedy healing & recovery.((((hugs and a virtual massage)))

@Spiderallis (((soft pillow hugs for sleep))) @VioletButterfly (((hugs and chocolate))) @TK (((hugs and praise for your courage in posting))) @Lizio ((hugs if you accept and one free get out of hell card)) (hope it made you smile) @notsurewheretoturn ((hugs and the breath of a Spring Wind during Winter's ravage))) @Lionheart777 (((hugs and the hope of future possibilities for soft romance))

 

[Lionheart]

I did an abstract image test to find my personality and the results were 'passionate and zesty'. Ha Ha Ha that pretty much describes me as I tend to feel very deeply and very passionately about things.

.... Anyways tonight, I am feeling good, I feel loved and cared for, supported and validated. I feel optimistic about the future and although I will always carry a little bit of sadness about the past I am holding tight to my good memories and focusing on them. I feel strong and although I am physically weak from a flare- up of chronic fatigue syndrome, I am full of life and love.

 

[Britt.f7]

@Recovery4Me Thank you very much. It was all I could think about last night. I don't know how his mother does it.

 

[VioletButterfly]

I'm feeling very sad, very fat (I've gained a lot of weight), concerned about the weight, afraid of today holds for me, angry with my father and his selfishness, unworthy. Wow, I guess I'm a bummer today. Sorry. VB

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling better today after getting caught up finally on all of the things I neglected around here for a week. I feel good that my manager and his son are digging out my back yard and putting drains in it to prevent the heavy flooding I had when the rains nearly flowed into my apartment. I am still feel pretty shaky as well. I am feeling good about trying to get stable. I feel good about the self care having a comfortable sweats day today and watching movies. All in all a mixed bag.