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Raining, pouring down on the thirsty earth, my first cup of coffee in the morning. Being able to fix a hot breakfast. Feeling calm and peaceful in the morning when I first wake up.
@Rain Sounds quite amazing. Should remember your beautiful description the next rainfall here to help with my gratitude. :)
Working plumbing.
Working heating.
Dead wasps.
Credit.
:arghh;
Mostly, the unexpected continuous long-distance support from old t's during this transition.
The extended visit from my red-tailed hawk buddy and the 19 turkeys that were passing through today. Fascinating to observe and share space in such close proximity.
For spending time with my children and my beautiful man.
For the abaiting of symptoms, that's happened recently.:-)
For a roof over my head and provisions
For my skin, for being the edges of me and a barrier and considering what I've put it through, not being in too shocking a state.
For finally getting to sleep at 6 am. Which was a good deal later than I wanted but at least I did sleep. And I didn't exactly help matters by bring glued to my phone till 3 am. Must be more respectful of good sleep hygiene innit.
For James Baldwin and everything he had to say. ♡♡♡
Feeling all kinds of gratitude on this frigid sunny day with the first totally clear blue sky I've seen in what feels like forever. Reflecting like a mofo today. Feeling super grateful for:
sound sleep that I never before experienced in all my years of shi(f)t work, etc.
the chem clouds and other artificial crap that surrounds that helps me more deeply appreciate the cleaner days, both externally and internally
chocolate-avocado mousse/pudding!!! more, please!
the ability to think things through more often rather than impulsively acting upon each whim/thought, although some days I miss it
running water that's mostly clean, for now
electricity
fireplace with plenty of wood to be had
a place to call home with another kind/loving human, surrounded by greenery and various wild things
much smoother and kinder bodily operations than I ever experienced the other 4 decades of my painful lesson-filled life, thanks to much greater awareness of how this being known as me actually functions, from the inside out
thrift store/craigslist/consignment shop finds that make my chosen processes of maintaining wellness easier to keep up with
gardeners who choose to grow organically and year around who also generously share their bounty
fresh greens
slow-cooked beans
fresh herbs
fresh fruit
fresh outlook (most days)
non-synthetic/non-artificial fragrances that I can comfortably use and even be surrounded by without wrecking my and everyone else's endocrine and respiratory systems in the process...if only others would catch on for the health of it...synthetic fragrances do not equal good hygiene, in the least, but rather equals a major health issue to the humans applying it and exposed to it, the pets who are exposed, and the environment that it all goes back to when it goes down the damn drain, not to mention the processes of making it
the burning desire to keep learning about/creating tasty whole food plant-based vegan things that are genuinely comforting and nurturing that don't cause me to have to question the list of ingredients OR the list of random symptoms that religiously arrived after my previous daily food/beverage choices(colds, allergies, flu, tummy bugs, diarrhea, IBS, nausea, etc., etc.)...symptoms that got mislabeled and treated as soooo many things they weren't, based solely on high-dollar highly educated guesswork...creating even more painful/complicated issues and side effects down the line...simply masking symptoms, when I was "lucky", while actively delaying any real healing that could have been taking place. grrr....
my magnetic awareness magnet creations with my newfound ability to draw more pictures to make them come to life a little more...and the smiles and giggles they bring about
this space that allows open expression to help us get through our days, learn more ways, and to help sort and support when we can
For seeing the plants beginning to grow in the hydroponic garden. (love when an experiment works)
For my husband fixing the flat tire before he left and arranging help with the watering.
For the time spent with good friends last night.