What Are You Grateful For Today?

[Teasel]

I'm grateful to be well enough to go out walking again :)

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

Waking up today with much less drama and scary shit than yesterday. I turned 51 y'day and had an early morning surprise party like no other.....that ended at the ER....with a ride in the ambulance from the urgicare place to the ER. Heart palpitations, shortness of breath, tingling/numb arms, and ready to fall out any minute. So incredibly grateful for the highly skilled, super kind, huge hearted folks I crossed paths with in each space.

That kind of scare hasn't happened since my early 20s (was told then it was a panic attack brought on by heat exhaustion), and luckily, they didn't find anything concerning in all the tests they did. However, that leaves my overactive brain/tornadic thoughts wondering where the hell that came from since I have no actual answers. Following up with more testing to see if there's something else going on. The stress has been piling up, for sure, and many things coming to surface, so I guess it all decided to come to a head as I was sleeping. No matter how big a heart is, it still can't take on but so much of other peoples stuff on top of the heavy load it already carries.

My born day present this year seems to be a huge dose of radical realization.....that no matter how well I maintain my daily lifestyle to promote ongoing healthy, kind, and nurturing choices, something can still very easily and unexpectedly take me down and out with no warning, be it internally or externally. Although I remain fully convinced if I didn't put as much time and effort into making said choices, my testing results would have varied greatly and I'd be a much more frequent flier in the medical arena. Having all the doctors/nurses agree, validate, and at times even celebrate that thought with me helps me in continuing to maintain those choices.

If only the ones who work closely with patients who choose to wear perfumes/etc. could realize and actually give a damn about how incredibly detrimental their choices are to some of the folks they are caring for, that would be great. It really sucks going in for help with one thing only to be made more ill in other ways by the choices of others. Regardless, I'm damn grateful to still be here today to have something to bitch about and celebrate. Here's to health....the only true wealth I've discovered thus far.

 

[littleoc]

Um... having a job?

:) The weather’s been beautiful!!

 

[ninja]

Change.

 

[Teasel]

A different perspective
Some time with others who understand
An active sort of day
Hope :)

 

[intothelight]

A pain free day.
Seeing hard work finally paying off.
For hot, humid summer weather...let the fun begin.

 

[DharmaGirl]

Seeing the gardens I planted in the front yard bloom!
Building a new broody coop.
Hearing the sound the broody hen makes when I give her fertilized eggs.
The rain, after weeks of no rain!!!
Selling all 18 chicks.
Sleeping last night with no nightmares for the first time in years!

 

[Ronin]

Someone to still poem at and with.

 

[littleoc]

Having friends

Having friends who care about me, and will take me to the store :)

 

[Teasel]

I'm grateful for a good kind of day
And for the prospect of living alone in the future.

 

[LuckiLee]

I was able to relax the whole day. Even got a nap in.

 

[littleoc]

The ability to decide to be able to sleep in when I need to :)