For living through yet another super scary "heart incident" today. At least it happened while I was already at the hospital, however it wasn't nearly as comforting as one may think it would be, being as how it wasn't taken very seriously by the heart and vascular center receptionist for what felt like quite some time. Glad the other folks stepped in to help when they did.
Still no specific answers, as all my numbers and such come back "just fine", but am currently wearing a 30 day monitor to see what the rhythms are like. Feeling pretty defeated in all my ongoing attempts at living a healthier lifestyle when stuff like this comes up out of the blue, but not enough to give it all up.
Stress is a killer and creator of many ills, too, and I still tend to let it pile up and remain convinced I can handle it all, even though I know better. Must not allow the rampant shitty thoughts to override actual accomplishments and drastic improvements. Must take good care of self to help take good care of mom. Man....this shit is so heavy.