What Are You Thinking?

[Deleted member 12723]

I am thinking that I am learning, growing, and healing so much lately. I never thought this day would come. But I always hoped it would get better and it is.

 

[Tanishq]

I am thinking about my life

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am thinking that I am not having a bad anniversary reaction yet to the time of my husbands death last year.

 

[Tanishq]

I am thinking about hold on to good thoughts.

 

[Tinyflame]

I am thinking it's going to be really hard to find out where my sister's health stands, because she is supposed to find out today. But then she might tell me who-knows-when, so expecting to hear would be setting myself up for more stress. I can't imagine the news will be positive though, I mean I just simply "can't". I'm worried about others who are ill too.

I am thinking I hope I never gave anyone what I have these last few days, because I am sick but I can't not work either. I'm not sure how I will get done what I need to today, I guess one step at a time. Also concerned I don't give it to my other sister because she has a day-surgery next week.

Have an office meeting before a long day at work tomorrow, hope I feel better than this, & shouldn't think it but just want to get it over with.

Also heard just awful 'old' news yesterday that a co-worker's daughter committed suicide 3 years ago. Don't know what to feel, other than horror. Hope what I said to her didn't make it worse. :cry: :(

Like a fool I agreed to help with a program that's going to require me to be publicly visible on-and-off at sporting events etc much of the summer. I thought I was pushing out of my comfort zone but I think I simply was ignoring the fact of ptsd. Sometimes that's good but in retrospect I don't think that's one of those times.

I am thinking I probably am affected by waiting for my sister's news so much I can't make much sense of stuff. I guess I feel like I felt in the past, under similar conditions/ realities.

 

[ms spock]

I am thinking that I will make it through.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am thinking that life is a practice and it is so much more challenging for those of us who have multiple traumas. Healing and recovery is so worth it.

 

[Britt.f7]

I am thinking that I am really fat. How did I allow myself to get this way?! I know no one can change me but me. The going will be tough with my chronic illness, but I also hate seeing myself this way. It's like I got a wake up call when I was out shopping today. Not good.

 

[Tanishq]

I am thinking to read good healing thoughts.

 

[ms spock]

I am thinking that changing my mindset is very challenging.

 

[Deleted member 10686]

I'm thinking about a few different things; first off, how none of the things I'm thinking about feel drastic or intense thanks to the medications I'm on that are actually working. I'm thinking about my appointment with my pdoc today and wondering if I should ask for another referral for a therapist, or if I should just leave it alone and not Do therapy for a while. I haven't had any luck with finding a therapist that works for me and I'm not sure I want to keep looking and being disappointed.

I'm also thinking about how much hulu plus sucks compared to Netflix, but they have the Simpsons.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am thinking about all of the fun I am going to have tomorrow. I will be getting out of this house and spending time with good friends.