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I am thinking how wonderful it is for me to be able to journal again after a four year period of not being able to do it at all. I am sorting out so many things for myself.
I am thinking that little I consider writing and/or have attempted to today, either makes one bit of sense, ...and/or that confusion or error will be harshly criticized and I'll be yelled at for being wrong, because I deserve it.
I am thinking that I am in the process of finding the lost me for the last four years and the journaling is really helping me so very much. I am making concrete plans for the future in baby steps that I will take. I am becoming me again but different because I am single now and I live with my daughter and the grandkids. A brand new life is starting to develop slowly. I am getting so much accomplished.
I am thinking it is bad of me not to want to go walk with my husband. He always goes too far for me. It isn't fair to the dogs that I rein it in. Maybe when I get better.
I am thinking to kick fear now. ;) (You have to do this with attitude so those fears don't come back, they get the memo you are stronger than it. This is in my plan :D)
I am thinking to start facing fears today. I tried facing it, but got demoralized and then feared facing them in mind. I am aware my all fears are in my head, I always react to it. From now on, won't. This should lead me somewhere. Hopefully more powerful ways to beat fears.
I am thinking it probably would be in my best interest to go next door tomorrow if I don't chicken out.
There is going to be an Open House in the afternoon, and it might be helpful for me to go inside as a way to get more of my power back from that family.