What Bad Shit Have You Done - Daily, As it Comes To You, Your Past, Lets Be Honest

[Heather]

Every time we drive by the house where my daughter was molested. We give the finger.

 

[Friday]

A man died getting myself & several others ID we never used.

*

 

[Ronin]

^^ *holds a minute of silence for that hero.*

 

[LuckyDuck]

Poor behavior on this site. It's a work in progress.

 

[Chava]

Lots of shoplifting in college, while drunk. Later, willfully neglected a work policy and said to my boss, "Write me up!" I'm an asshole. But it was a f*cking stupid policy.

 

[Ronin]

Being honest. I can't seem to get the timing for it straight.

 

[LuckyDuck]

I want to further up with an apology. I was not nice, it was horrible what I did. To all the members who took part in the thread, I apologize. I'm going to talk to my T about it. I'm going to work on eliminating my snarkiness.

I'm going to take some time off from the forum. If I need to come on, I will, but I feel I need to work on myself.

LD

 

[illusionist]

Wished a major disability for someone because of the stress and nastiness they give to others......still hoping.

 

[Ronin]

I'm going to work on eliminating my snarkiness.

Just pointing out that wasn't snarkiness; I communicate almost exclusively in snark where emotional matters are concerned, and that wasn't the issue, or: snarkiness doesn't an attitude make. However, cheers on your resolution to get better, and wishing you luck with it & therapy success. :tup:

 

[Lionheart]

I have treated myself poorly in the past because I blamed myself for sexual child abuse that was not my fault!!! I cut my arms and wrists, I have tried to kill myself with booze and sleeping pills, had lots of high risk sex etc. and prayed for my life to end.

Today I am the complete opposite, I am happy to be alive. Still I owe myself some love and affection for all I have been through!

 

[Ronin]

I was dishonest with my weapons.

(Or: On the list of things where I give all the damns I have to give & see friends that won't become traitors just well.)

 

[mamachick]

My therapist says that I have an over active super ego. I think she means that I feel guilt when it is not due. The truth is I dont know where my problems stop and others begin. I called one of my daughters a fat pig and said some really mean stuff after I constantly put her needs before my own (she would verbally punish me if I did not). The last straw was my telling her I could not help her move her stuff home from law school when she graduated, but she pushed and even got her dad on me, knowing that I was awaiting rotator cuff surgery and in much pain. Not only did I give in, but when she dumpted it all over my house, she announced she was the designated driver for "the boys" that helped and the stuff remained for weeks. I was left at her apartment alone while her and her dad went for the truck and didnt return for 3 hours and she was not packed. I packed and scrubbed the apartment and was still cleaning when the truck was loaded and they were all drinking a beer. Anyway, I certainly have lost it and said some incredible stuff that I wish I had not, because I do not want to hurt others. I cant justify it by the fact that I am pushed and taken advantage of because I have allowed that. Some days I feel such guilt, that I am responsible for everyones woes. This thinking leads to self destruction. I know that is a co-depency issue that I am dealing with, but it is really hard to rid of distortions. I sure know how to absorb those negative emotions of others and blame myself for the past several yrs. Before this, I could see the manipulation and not respond so much. I dont feel very strong right now, thats for certain.