What does normal feel like?

[SunDog]

Hey there,

Just needed somewhere to vent I guess. I feel like every day is a struggle. Does this ever get easier?
I reckon mentally my association with the best it's ever going to be is distorted. I never had a chance to be or feel normal. I'm afraid of being happy sometimes because my head tells me it's gotta go wrong to balance it out. When I wake up in the morning I feel like I groan inwardly because it feels too hard to face reality. I need to believe it's going to and it can get better. But I don't... And it scares me.

 

[EveHarrington]

I have no idea what normal feels like.

Last weekend I told my guy that I wanted to be normal. He validated me by saying that I had to find a new normal, which is better than the invalidating line about how normal is a setting on a washing machine (or whatever).

Things do get better, for most I believe. I think if you keep working on healing and try to attack PTSD from many different sides, then you will improve....diet, exercise, therapy, medication, etc...

Please don’t lose hope. :hug:

 

[SunDog]

I have no idea what normal feels like.

Last weekend I told my guy that I wanted to be normal. H...

Thank you so much. And sending hugs back. I hope you find peace with this struggle too. It is exhausting as it feels like you can't check out and catch your breath with it because it is constant.

 

[ladee]

It gets much much better. WE get much much better. Is it normal?? Pbftttt, I don't think I know what that is. I know what MY normal is, and I've learned to accept it is not like people that aren't like us. I look at what society calls 'normal' and just grateful I am me with PTSD. I have tools those people never dreamed would even be necessary.

Is it hard work. Yes. Not going to lie to you. But there are many many people here that are working so hard, with a lot of upsets, triggers, no sleep, flashbacks. And we just keep going. There is hope, if you read some in a few diary's you will see how hard people are working. How much they are learning.

We still have times , but not ones that last for months or years. We are human first and have PTSD second. My life is far from perfect, which in my world view, sounds boring. But it is a good life. Most times I am content. And when I'm not, I know what to do. And if I don't, I come here and share and get support, am heard, and know that I'm never alone.

There is hope. Healing hugs sent your way. Give your self a chance. :hug::hug:

 

[SunDog]

It gets much much better. WE get much much better. Is it normal?? Pbftttt, I don't think I know what that...

That means a hell of a lot to me. Especially the way I'm feeling right now. From the bottom of my heart... Thank you!

 

[Innordinate]

Does this ever get easier?

Simply, yes. like @ladee said, hard work, setbacks, more hard work..... it gets easier. Maybe not simple, but easier.

I'm afraid of being happy sometimes because my head tells me it's gotta go wrong to balance it out.

I'm with you here, it feels wrong. Or like a calm before the storm. Alarm bells blaring "danger danger danger!"
Sometimes we're our own worst enemies but it's okay to be happy. And it's okay to worry about being happy.
Might even say that's normal.

And ask any normal person, they don't know what the hell normal feels like either btw.

 

[Esterio]

Hi SunDog

I don't know if there is such a thing as normal it really doesn't sound like it anyway. It does get better and you have come to a place with lots of hard working people working to be the person they want to be. Is that normal I think so, everyone is trying to be that person that they want to be. Good luck on your healing journey. Be the person you want to be.

Peace be safe