This is so insightful! I bet a big part of it is your T wants to make sure you can utilize healthy coping skills instead of resorting to negativity and self-harm…diving into trauma processing has been a million times harder than I expected it would be. The process has increased all my negative emotions between sessions as well as my desires to “just make it stop” in all the bad ways…but I know things are moving for me in the right direction and that feels so rewarding. It’s so hard for me to use healthy coping skills when the bad ones work faster and I am already really good at using them, lol. I’d say this insight you’ve had is progress! Best of luck to you!Now I'm thinking the fact that I have been spiraling into negative thoughts and giving into self harm urges this week after this one little comment might actually prove that I'm not as stable as I thought I was.