TruthSeeker
Diamond Member
My decision making process is really not a process. Sometimes I do things and sometimes I don't. I usually wait for instructions from my grandparents because if I don't on a bad day I end up with spoiled milk in the cupboard and chocolate milk power in the fridge :)
When I am anxious, afraid, stressed, or depressed my mind goes blank. Its like I am an empty shell. I have no idea what I am doing and sometimes I miss minutes of my life and have no clue what I had done to deserve the looks I am receiving. Its awful.
I was okay for a really long time. I don't think anything triggered me at all, but now I am really really struggling again. I guess it comes in phases, right? Usually I'm fine for a long time and then out of nowhere I will be in the dumps for a few weeks then I'll be fine again. Its been months this time and nothing is getting better...
@mourning.starre Doors and Drawers Syndrome as I call it are my major symptoms of my checking in and out of reality: (Lots of cabinets, dishwasher, fridge/freezer, washer/dryer, and entrance doors left wide open and the key is chronically left in the lock- are “leftovers” of missing time incidents.It is like I do the first half(open) and forget step 2-close! When I’m doing well this is not a chronic issue. That’s a gauge for how Im doing on any given day.