What Improvements Have You Made?

[Deleted member 12723]

I am digging deep to find the good things in life. I am trying to stay positive no matter how bad I feel. I am trying to think of things to do. I am trying to have a life in spite of the hardships and obstacles in my life.
I am clean and sober, and quit smoking, no more vices. That was a big huge one. I am glad about so many things. I am trying to be a help and a support to my family.

 

[Let It Be]

I moved my "work" clothes out of my "work" closet, and then right after that, I received that e-mail from the counselor I had been seeing, and the ripple affect took over. I was still working when I began seeing this counselor, and now that I'm not, the energy behind all of this, came up, and took over me and my life these past few days. Presently, I am pooped, tired, exhausted, my body hurts, but it seems it was time to make even more changes in my home. Rubbermaid containers have been replaced by carts with wheels so much more user friendly in the garage. It just amazes me when this stuff happens, and I know that I need to go with it.

 

[freakofnurture]

Discussions between my husband and myself rarely turn into fights anymore because I got much better at dealing proactively with his often triggering style of communication.

I've been keeping up the 'Every day is a new day'-approach for 1.5 years now, meaning that I get up every morning and try to get something done, no matter how I feel; if I get nothing done it's okay, too, but I have to try. I can't bail using the 'I'm feeling just as bad as yesterday, I won't get anything done anyways, what's the use in trying, I'll just stay in bed and feel lazy and miserable'-excuse.

I've done 30 rounds of weight training and ~60 rounds of stretching since January this year. It makes me feel good about myself every now and then and is good for my physical health.

Changing my meds led to me finally being able to concentrate again. I do love my new AD.

 

[Let It Be]

Have gone back to that "scene of the crime" incident that happened over two years ago, and dealt with the anxiety/stress that went along with it.

Have waited out the time it took for my neighbor guy to leave so that I could experience my freedom again!

I still need to work on getting my Will changed/make decisions about what to do. This causes me stress with it just being me, with no family, etc.

I still need peace about the counselor I saw, and how I began not to feel "safe" by sharing with her.

I also need to decide one of these days, if I want to move/sell my house, to live in duplexes.

At least I have checked some things off my list that have caused my stress/anxiety in the past and learning more about what I can do to lessen it day by day!

 

[Abrasky]

I became strong enough to remember my trauma.

I wasn't able to work after my trauma for 13 years in a paid position. I have now been working for 2 months.

I wasn't able to leave my house 13 years ago. I conquered that 4 years into my therapy.

I was on anti-deppressants for 6 years. I became well enough to be antideppressant free for 6 years.

I put boundaries up to protect myself now.

 

[Froggie]

Wow, awesome (((Maze)))

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I am able to go to college and I am able to have small doses of social interactions.

I feel proud of that. :)

 

[Abrasky]

Thanks Froggie, it's inspired by good people in my life, and support avaliable too.

 

[Deleted member 14359]

Wow maze, thought I was going a good job of healing...WTG! Keep up the good work !!

 

[Ajf7849d]

- Relearned how to talk. Happiest day of my life when I could speak full sentences again.
- Relearned all the basic social conventions. That took forever.
- Minimized panic attacks. They're rare now, and really mild.
- Put some kind of memory back together. I think I got it mostly right.
- Made amends with the family. It's not the same, but I just have to accept that.
- Fixed my grades
- Back to wearing shorts. This is a huge deal.
- I can sleep with the lights off most of the time now. Not always though, I've regressed a bit.
- I can read pretty ok. It's doable.
- I can register objects well enough to drive. Kind of huge.

Stuff I still need to do:
- Stop the forced dissociation, I've become too dependent.
- Quit freaking out while shopping. I panic, and can't really register anything I'm seeing until I get really familiar with the store.
- Reacquire a life, reintegrate with society.

Last one's the hardest. Oh man. 5 years. It took 5 years to become functional again. Blood and tears (and a little sweat). I'm sorry, but I just need to brag right now. Typing this all out sort of gives me perspective. I'm so close.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I get out of the house more now. I am taking breaks. I am respecting myself more. I am not beating up on myself as much as I was. I am taking better care of myself. When i screw up I make an amend right away.

 

[Inspired 2 B Free]

My most significant improvement has been taking ownership of my own behavior. It's helped me to separate out what part of things is my past (family contribution) and what part is my present (my own contribution).

Not being a victim makes a huge difference.