What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[Dynamic]

I have this constant daily self hatred rising up and today I feel stronger than it. Tears in my eyes I just don't care about the past at all. Was that a second ago? Oh that's over. This is now.

 

[BlueWeepingRose]

I just want people to accept me for who I am and not just see me as a victim, I don't tell people my business or anything... but I guess my eyes say everything. I don't always smile so sometimes I have to practice in the mirror to smile. I just want people to talk with me and get to know me. Sometimes it's lonely when you're alone.

 

[Miyu38]

I'm wondering if I can live one day or will it always feel like I'm living to die.

 

[Tinyflame]

I stayed to support now I leave to support. The breech is filled and now it's more burdensome than helpful. Glad I learned for myself.

I've usually been aware of others needs, but was not afforded the same.

I am allergic to cold, it is like food poisoning symptoms if I'm in it long enough. I want more than 3 hours of sleep. My presence is not needed or wanted anywhere that requires that effort or sacrifice. It's wasted, because it's not wanted nor valued. In fact, the opposite is true. Am glad I see the truth for myself. It's just phony.

It actually isn't my pblm if I don't have receipts or cards- throw them out. Or if I can't give, I can give somewhere else. It's ok, and not really my pb0lm.

Merry Christmas to all!

 

[Tinyflame]

Oops I missed the edit: it's not a problem for me, really, and it no longer will be a problem for others. I am relieved. It's a bit, 'Who cares?', but really it is true. Time to go.

 

[Freddyt]

All the prep work is done, just throw the beans together in the slow cooker tomorrow, stuff the turkey, let it cook and hope I can enjoy time with loved ones....

and hopefully a Merry Christmas!

 

[Tinyflame]

I think being kind and gentle isn't an end in itself- it's more like a character defect. It sucks. Like, 'sukka!'

(Sorry for quote booboo, couldn't remove).

 

[Sideways]

(Sorry for quote booboo, couldn't remove).

All taken care of!

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @Sideways you are both sweet and hard-working!

 

[Miyu38]

Is it wrong for me to still feel like someone is family even though they did people wrong? So my uncle by marriage has been cheating on his wife for a while and has another family which she didn't know anything about until it all came out at Thanksgiving. He also was stealing money from them.

I don't give a lot of people my trust but I care for both of them. I'm sad he decided to take this route but I can't think of him as not my uncle like my aunt wants me too. I haven't said anything since my aunt and nephew are hurt by all this.

This has affected me more then I think it should I also don't know what to say or do about this. I feel like crying but as usual it just want happen so it will just stay with me until I go numb to it all or feel indifferent. I also don't want to just think of myself about this whole thing. Just another thing to deal with but luckily I have an appointment soon with my T.

 

[Tinyflame]

Was just thinking, **** HAPPY BIRTHDAY @anthony !!!!**** (It is 'Official'!)

And thank you for the kindness and bravery that shows the person you are, and is why and how you persevered and made this community. You are an amazing and wonderrful person!!
Happy Celebrations to you and Nicolette and family (and 's )! (AND I'm putting in a long distance anyway!)
Cheers to you!

 

[anthony]

Thank you. 51 today. About to take puppies for a morning walk On the beach in South Australia.