What Is Your Subjective Units Of Distress (suds) Rating Right Now?


The other day… when I was feeling perfectly fine… the number 94 popped into my head for this question.

I should have listened to my subconscious.

It’s been a helluva few days. With subsequent loss of memory of most of Oct-Now.

No idea why. But 94 / 9.4? Was reaaaaally damn accurate.

Even though I’ve been running several points below normal for a few months, now. >.<. Whoopsies. From 4 or less to 9 and above, to an “I didn’t even notice that happening”? f*cking PTSD nonsense.


22 (2.2)

Extreme physical exercise would be overstating, but 9 hours of near constant (skilled / directed) motion at least hits the “serious” level of exercise.

+ Painkillers (for making this day possible!)
+ Food / Sleep
+ A couple kinds of social interactions that tick the right boxes

= I haven’t felt this chill in a few years 😎


Yesterday my SUDS was rather squarely in the 89 range, for some super obvious reasons that I don’t need to go into right now and spin myself out again 😱 , so today’s massive blow off of steam, plus solid foundations (food/sleep/pain management) has just been a veeeeery good thing.