Defaultxlove
MyPTSD Pro
6/7 Im tired of life right now but Ill see what I can do to help myself.
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Feeling alienated but not freaking out. Just feels normal and default to be an alien, like it’s my true self. Not sure what my level is. Feels like all at once.8 = Freaking out. The beginning of alienation.
For me I am currently in a state of intense emotions and trying desperately to revert back to when I *was* numb but I can’t so I’m angry. The alienation for me is not dissociation from what I can tell, but rather a sense that I am deeply flawed from my csa and relationship training, and so somehow things that I thought were accessible from working on recovery are out of reach and unrecognizable suddenly. I’m doubting my ability to relate.being numb, flat, with no access to feelings or feeling shut off
Yes. And unsure if I ever was or ever will be. Trying to accept that I’m ruined feels like the only logical thing rather than keep pretending/hoping that I’m going to develop the ability to relate humanely.sense of being separate, not part of, disconnected, not fully engaged in the fullness of the felt experience of all that the moment has to offer?