What Made You Angry Today?

[ladee]

Thanks @Mal Content, don't hug too tight, you might hurt something...:playful::playful:

 

[Deleted member 33052]

Thanks @Mal Content, don't hug too tight, you might hurt something...:playful::playful...

Poor, old gimpy you!

 

[ladee]

I know @Mal Content, never ever thought I would feel that I could not fight my way out of a situation.... but adrenaline is a wonderful thing.... :wacky:

 

[NatBird]

I'm angry that my brain is filled with thoughts of my ex, that she was in my dreams. I'm angry about the things I done. I'm angry I can't change things. I'm angry that life seems to be full of goodness for her. I'm angry that I wake most days feeling stagnent and drained. I angry that I'm unable to let go. I'm angry about being me. I'm angry I don't have the skills to easily build and maintain relationships. I'm angry that I haven't been able to be vulnerable and tell the truth about what I was feeling. I'm angry that I'm a coward. I angry about the total mess my life is in. I'm angry that I feel unable to stop being angry at myself and this is what makes my auto immune condition worse. I'm angry I feel so much hurt, hatred, jealousy. I'm angry about the condition of my body. I'm angry about what happened, angry about all the destroying things that happened. I'm angry I'm still alive and don't know what I'm meant to do with this steaming pile of shit. I'm angry I have no eyes in the woods. I'm angry I need to build myself a life with no hands. I'm angry at a culture that tells you you should just get over it, become a millionaire with a best selling book on Oprah's book club list. I'm angry that all the people that don't survive, that haphazardly muddle through have no memorial or celebration. I'm angry at my grandmother and her oblivion. I'm angry the last time I enjoyed summer was five years ago. I'm angry that I am angry. I am angry that I'm angry. I'm angry that I have energy to write this but not my application form. I'm angry at myself for being so broken, for not being perfect, for all the times I presented one thing (intentionally or not) and I was another. I am angry my ex was in my dream. I'm angry that this relationship won't leave me. I'm angry that I don't know or understand what it's all about.

I could cry now. Sorry if that was too much

 

[Deleted member 33052]

I'm angry that myIn is filled with thoughts of my ex, that she was in my dreams. I'm angry about th...

It's never too much. It's exactly as much as you needed to say. I hear so many feelings beneath your anger. Hurt, frustration, longing, abandonment. If there was a magic bullet, I would give it to you. You don't deserve this much pain. :hug:

 

[ladee]

@NatBird, you are telling my story when I divorced my husband. I felt just like you do now. All of it. It felt like I was drowning in the anger and fear. I learned a lot about myself coming out of the other side of this. And one of the most beautiful things I learned, that it's ok to grieve and be crazy about a relationship that couldn't have worked under the best of circumstances... that it wasn't all me... And that I was a proud warrior for doing what needed to be done to get to the other side.. Some days were better than others... Some sucked. But it was worth the journey. I never would have learned what I needed to know, had that relationship not been a part of my journey. I do understand where you are... I hope you do feel a little lighter for putting that anger out in the light where it will eventually not be such a heavy load... Namaste and gentle hugs.

 

[Deleted member 34424]

I don't usually get angry but I was frustrated with not catching a rare Pokémon today ;)

 

[Deleted member 33052]

I don't usually get angry but I was frustrated with not catching a rare Pokémon today ;)

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Was it holed out at Westborough Baptist Church? :D

 

[NatBird]

@NatBird, you are telling my story when I divorced my husband. I felt just like you do...

@ ladee much gratitude for the acknowledgement and encouragement in just allowing/expressing the feelings. Anger is one I find difficult so helps a lot. Thank you.

 

[ladee]

I truly wish I had had this place to come to back then. I think if someone had just said it's ok, I understand how you feel, it would have made a world of difference... so glad you understand you are having feelings.. There are no right or wrong feeling.... hope you have a little better day today...gentle hugs

 

[Silver.]

@ladee :hug:

 

[Heather]

My mom... had a big fight. god she's a pain.

But it's better now.