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What Made You Angry Today?

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Bloody, damn cars. The gearbox on Hs car is on its last legs. The repairs cost more than the damn thing is worth.

It will just have to keep going until it dies, no way can we afford £1K upwards for another car - grrrr.
 
Next door neighbour's great granddaughter, she screams at the drop of a hat.

Had to shut the door earlier it was so bad, and hubby lost it so slammed the patio door. Have to admit I almost said something to them about it, it was so bad. :oops:
 
I was feeling like crap today and was relaxing. My husband was hallucinating and having delusions. I had to be patient with him. I made a huge mistake in the checkbook and I am having a awful day. I am angry that when it rains it pours.
 
I have so much anger, frustration and fear tonight that I feel it all in my stomach, shoulder and head!

My stomach now feels like a whirling-cement ball (yes cement and still whirling), candle-pin sized ball of rage. It's so heavy right now it not only feels like it could take my breath away just from its weight, but that I almost need to force it up and out. It reminds me of what I'd needed to carry around throughout my teens, into my 20's. which I then did and had to purge sixteen to twenty+ times daily in the form of heaps of food and/or stomach bile. It feels like the only way around this now is through a welcoming fist to the stomach. Will somebody please f'n punch me? Omg, this feeling is overwhelming.

My shoulders feel like they need to be held down and back just in order to find necessary relief from feelings of lack of touch, neglect and tingling hollowness. My head feels like a electrical current has been being continuously zapped through at medium to low voltage and like I'm wearing a steel clamp around the forehead, temples and back which is gradually being tightened at the impulses, mercy and discretion of others.

I am filled tonight with quite understandable frustration, pressure and anger, ...and then not so understandable-(for others), rage. Chiefly at extended family members, yet at some specific immediate family as well.

As for why I'm so angry, it's a long story and one that will only sicken me further at the moment right now.
 
Blinking idiot drivers. I was turning right at a crossroads and my exit want clear due to a holdup, so,.obviously I stayed put. Well, this lady driving a blooming Chelsea tractor with a caravan couldn't get past me and she was being ever so rude! :mad:
 
I had a very sleepless night last night. I kept thinking about how one day I might be moving and selling my house that I have lived in, like forever.

It all just makes me angry because the main reason why I'm thinking about moving is because I have no family members that would come and take of things if something would happen to me. It just goes back to being alone and now this.

I guess I was due to get to this place and have some resentments about all of this. I have no idea when I will move, where, or even how much rent I would pay, and if I could afford it, or how long it would take my house to sell. My thoughts were overwhelming and I didn't know how to get to that place where I would know everything would be okay.

This whole process of waiting and waiting causes me to have so much anxiety, especially since I have been on that list since 01-2011 and my name is still at 175. The duplexes that are going to be built and finished in the Spring, haven't started yet.

I can't keep losing sleep over this!
 
Update:

Well, I think all the anxiety and not sleeping was trying to tell me something.

I called now to the Housing Place and found out my name is now #71. They had recently sent out form letters to see if you were still interested, otherwise, your name would be removed from the list. Thus, I have moved up on the list and did agree that I would move in within 30 days which gives an edge to being on the list.

I think what took me over the edge is that I went over to where the new duplexes are going to be built, they haven't started yet. When I called down there, there is still stuff going on with the government, etc. I also learned that it will be a first come, first serve when they are done. So irregardless of how long you have waited, you have a chance of getting one. When she told me what the rent would be for my income, I realized that is what is going on.

I'm on a fixed income so now I'm looking at the possibility of not having to have a "new" duplex, but just waiting it out until one becomes available that I can afford, like $100.00 less a month would make a big difference.

I do want to move and to sell my house, my house will not bring in that much, so that is why I began to freak out. I can just let it play out now. When it is time to move and sell the house, the right duplex will become available in my price range!

Now to get some sleep!
 
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