What Made You Angry Today?

[rainy_daze]

Even if you don't, please give yourself the compassion that you deserve.

Your reply meant a lot to me Britt, thank you :).

Today I am angry that my brain wakes up when it is time to sleep, and goes to sleep when it is time to wake. I'll be too exhausted to be angry soon though as I fall asleep while my alarm goes off ;).

 

[Shellbell]

Knowing that my pdoc thinks I should be in hospital right now, but as we don't have a high enough income (due to my inability to work due to severe PTSD) to afford private medical insurance, I can only be admitted in the public system if I'm actively suicidal.

So, basically when you are poor, you are only able to access inpatients treatment when you are about to end it all.

This doesn't surprise me at all, but it still annoys me.

 

[GreenFrog2]

(((Shellbelll)))

I also have a very limited income, and there is no way that I could afford private health insurance. This has prevented me from getting treatment. It's so sad as I am sure that if I had had good treatment when my symptoms commenced things would never have gotten as bad as they have.

 

[rainy_daze]

@Shellbell and GreenFrog2: I hope there are other ways you can get treatment or help that you deserve. I realise this forum is a huge help, and there is a lot of advice on it, but don't give up on trying to get treatment or maybe finding out other sources of help that do not cost as much money. I realise it's off topic to start a discussion here, but I hope there is somewhere locally that can offer free advice on what to do (for example, in the UK we have a Citizens Advice Bureau, and they can advise you on money enitilements, mental health, lots of things). If I'd had money I wouldn't have waited years on help, but I'm counting my blessings that I am getting help now. Having no money sucks, it really really does. I am angry at the world on your behalf guys as I am falling asleep at this keyboard.

 

[Shellbell]

Rainy_daze, I am really glad you are now getting the much needed help you have had to wait for. ((((hugs)))).

And hugs to you ((((Greenfrog2)))).

 

[GreenFrog2]

I've given up on getting treatment for now. The community services T's that I tried always ended up being either students, or only recently started working and unfortunately none of them were experienced with trauma. They were not able to cope with my situation at all, which lead to some very difficult sessions that ended up causing me far more problems than I already had.

I still get angry every time I think about it, as I knew they should have referred me to someone more experienced, but they wouldn't do this. There really is something very troubling about having people who want to "practice" on you - almost like being some kind of an experiment for their benefit, regardless of the damage that it was doing to me.

To help myself I keep working (as much as I can); have small hobbies that don't stress me out too much; and try to have some social engagement each week - keeping it small and simple as I now have very little stress tolerance. And then there is this site, which I have recently found - the information here has been enormously useful for me, and it has been fantastic to have a safe place to learn and think and speak (ok type!).

I continue to be angry about my trauma and not getting professional support. But at the same time I try to be kind to myself and to learn to manage my symptoms and underlying issues as well as I can.

 

[KP the nut]

copy DVD's

Copy DVD as a present - that really is cheap :eek:

 

[KP the nut]

It is more frustration than anger. I'm frustrated I missed Froggie again by minutes :facepalm:

 

[Legend]

Wow nothing has made me angry so far today, I believe it may very well be a good day!

 

[Charmedone]

I am angry at myself for being so useless and awful and pathetic.

 

[DharmaGirl]

I am angry at my inner little girl for having too many feelings and traumas.

 

[KP the nut]

The weather. The rain is lashing against the window again.