My awful, awful job. That I moved 3,000 miles to take, and worked 80+ hour weeks to try to keep. That harassed me every single day of the last two years of my life. That denied every one of the disability accommodation requests i submitted, without cause. That denied my right to FMLA, without cause. That docked me 15 minutes of pay for being 1 minute late to my desk despite never taking a lunch or a scheduled break and staying 3. 4, 5 hours late every night.
I've normalized that. But today, during an evacuation, after signing in at my designated area of the parking lot I stood around for a half hour with no one to talk to. Almost everyone I started with has been promoted, so they were elsewhere in the parking lot to sign in. I walked maybe 100 feet away to stand next to someone I actually knew. Everyone wanders, it's an enclosed parking lot. My psychotic manager watched me walk, and ran to his manager to "tell" on me. Two women executives show up to tell me "you're not allowed to stand here. You need to stay by that sign." I thought it was a joke.
So many special rules that only apply to me. But what made me angry was the fact that no one stood up for me. Not a single god damn person would even lend me the validation of my sanity. The person I love like a brother, that's seen the shit this agency has put me through from day one, looked at me like I was crazy. I am quitting. I lose, I give up and I'm angry that the enemy won.