What Made You Angry Today?

[Friday]

Like, well, no, f*ck you & your meetings. I'm not gonna go anywhere my stalker's family can even possibly be at. Accidental meets are bad enough.

Damn straight!

I also honestly don't give a f*ck about your so called problems.

Good. She hasn't earned your caring about her problems, even if you're so tempted to.

 

[Ronin]

Hence the venting.

Venting's awesome, though. Vent away.

One of the worlds I don't understand / most mother figures I've had in life were great deal of a mess, so Not a Mess, Just Colosally Messing Up mother is a no comprendo, but cheering on for your continued battling, my friend.

 

[Ed Norton]

Being always misunderstood

 

[ladee]

@Ed Norton, I understand you, does that scare you or help you to not feel alone?

 

[Ronin]

@Ed Norton, where are the people of your heart?
Where's them folks that DO understand? Because they be somewhere, so it's a search.

 

[Ronin]

Despair made me angry.
The hell, self? Time delayed, a few years after the action, despair? Head meet brick wall. About a success, even. PTSD, I'm done with your bullshit. You're not ruining my victories by -- ah okay, people call that 'getting back emotions from a no-emotion zone'. And it's a good thing. It's also a healing thing. Postponing Dafuq, my niggas?, moments.

 

[Changing4Best]

I just found out that my youngest cousin was raped by her live-in boyfriend, as was I. There is incest that runs in our family as well, her from her brother and his friends and I from our grandfather. I was also raped by my live-in boyfriend, repeatedly. At least she was able to get away from hers right away and it never happened to her again. I see these family resemblences and I am angry and sorry for her. She does not speak to me, for various reasons. She wrote an article about her experiences and my sister shared it on Facebook, or I would not have known. I am sorry for her pain, but I cannot express my sorrow, because if I do, she would probably block me on Facebook, which I would not prefer. I'd rather be able to read other things she writes at least. I just wanted to share this here, because this is the only safe place I have to share it. I am sad too, of course, for all the divisions in our family, of which there are many. Even that is generational....

 

[Ed Norton]

Poor people suffering and doctors not caring

 

[Ronin]

Multiple people and then my neighbor. Different neighbor than the stalker puta.

Deep breaths self, we don't go Punisher on the unworthy.

 

[Recovery4Me]

*Being marginalized when I explain the pressure cuff is too tight ( tore skin on my inner arm and left red welts) and was told to calm down as my digits went instantly numb. I explained- that pain gives false readings as to blood pressure anyway and took it off. :meh: No, don't consider having the device checked...just blame the patient.

*Having symptoms disregarded during medical exams, because I do not take meds for my PTSD. Having Doctors say things like...."So obviously you do not like meds." Like dependency on anti-anxiety meds or pharmaceuticals is my solution to avoiding future seizures or malfunctioning devices. :wtf:

 

[Ronin]

That problems aren't dealt with by shooting them.

Said in protectiveness & defensiveness of Recovery & Ed alike.

(No idea how to sympathize atm / too tired to try at words & empath responses, but I can aim & think in that.)

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

My mom's dog has been barking off and on all day today. It's driving me crazy. When the dog barks a lot I start losing my patience. It makes me want to scream. It's the pitch and the erratic pattern of her barks. And it's the volume. It irritates me through the PTSD symptoms like when I get overwhelmed with sounds.