What Makes You Angry Today?

[dutchiedelta]

Shite does this mean I have to start drinking and doing drugs now?
Let's see the funny side of it.Drenched in hard stuff but cold sober going apeshit.

Idea is growing on me.

 

[Lurch]

I had the pleasure of give a Gunny a verbal castration today in front of two Master Chiefs and my CO.

For all of my Marine brethren, I really never thought I would ever meet a Gunny that was a pussy. And that truly pisses me off. Don't ever come into my office out of standards and claim that your personnel are not being taken care of, when you are really crying about yourself. Orders are order written or verbal. Suck it up and be a part of the f*ckin solution instead of the problem.

 

[Friday]

I've been in a weird place, so I took an easy 300mi loop of a drive today. Finally calmed down, feeling okayish, go to pull into my driveway? And there is TheEx camped out in a lawn chair.

Victory= threw it in reverse before running the psychopath over.

Although more and more I wish I'd driven 10' further and then thrown it in reverse. A few times. Motherf*cking goddamned sociopathic ... What about eleven f*cking restraining orders do you not f*cking understand??? Oh. The you make 250k a year and can wipe the floor with me in court, you childabusing f*ck. You're remarried. Get. The. f*ck. Out. Of. My. Life.

I can't live in this city any longer.

 

[5line]

truckers using their j-brakes in front of my house at 05:15. thats what air brakes are for you f*cking asshole. ok i feel better now.

 

[combatgoldfish]

Unclear why I can't be left alone. It's a beast day. I inform her that I don't feel good, she keeps probing and probing, and starts showing her insecurities.

I know what's wrong and at the same time I really don't, so, avoidance is what I've done with myself locked in the bedroom. Let's see how long it takes for me to shake this.

 

[Sarg]

CGF,

This is a mistake I made with my wife. She was an intelligent, sensitive woman and when my beast ramped up into rage, all I wanted was to be alone. Wife would take this the wrong way, thinking I was leaving her. I should have sat her down, tried to explain something that even I didn't fully understand and assure her that I was not going to leave her, I just needed some "alone time".

There were too many occurrences of this melodrama for my liking. If you want to keep your partner, you got some 'splainin to do.

Sarg

 

[combatgoldfish]

CGF,

This is a mistake I made with my wife. She was an intelligent, sensitive woman and when my beast ramped up into rage, all I wanted was to be alone. Wife would take this the wrong way, thinking I was leaving her. I should have sat her down, tried to explain something that even I didn't fully understand and assure her that I was not going to leave her, I just needed some "alone time".

There were too many occurrences of this melodrama for my liking. If you want to keep your partner, you got some 'splainin to do.

Sarg

I learned to share more after I lost a 10 yr relationship. With this one she knows that it's the beast but still doesn't understand or let me be.

I put it on the table but it's still always a crap shoot.

 

[dutchiedelta]

She can't understand cos she doesn't know how it feels does she?
Hope she is empathic enough to let you be when you give off a clear signal.
Also hope you come out of this mood snappish.

 

[Grizzly]

While I don't know exactly what your going through CGF I have lived this similar scenario. I get into the predicament that I don't want to be around anyone. Just absolute nothingness. And she feels it's her. That I want to leave her. Or there is someone else. All of which are furthest from my thought. I just need 0 external stimuli. Through the years I have learned to hide this feeling from her. I either drank until no one wanted to be around me or just flipped the asshole switch. For the record I don't recommend this at all.

But I never want to share my thoughts. There mine, and there f*cked up. So in a way, I get it. She knows I have moods, she no longer questions. But nevertheless there is a sense of insecurity there which I sense. Hopefully me finally doing therapy will help me open up.

 

[Friday]

You know I've had exes that fall into 3 categories

- The insecure (it's all about them)
- The fixers (go. away.)
- The ones that get it (Grin and ask if I want to go f*ck some shit up? Most of the time, that's a hell yes, I just can't think straight enough to see it or organize it. And if not, if I really just need to be on my own? No worries, they're gonna call a snow day and go play on their own, call if I feel better.)

 

[combatgoldfish]

I've had one and two but never three.

Shit gets bad when I even hate the dog. I'm finally starting to come out of it. I guess when it comes down to it, I hate where I ended up and need to get on some path to at least feel like I've accomplished something

 

[Sarg]

You will, Combat. Just takes baby steps that can be very frustrating sometimes. We're objective oriented, we're at A and we need to be at B. Hell, you say let's go to B. Uh Un! You've got to go way the hell over there and then back and then the other way, it pisses the hell out of you to see B but not get there from here.

But you will. It's the only way we can have half a life on this planet.

Sarg