OldDoorGunner
Diamond Member
My brother in law pisses me off tonight. So I must admit I drank more then I should have and it was all fun and games until he got serious and when I have had to much to drink I have no filter... and I didn't hold anything back before I realized what I said until after I said it. But I only told him about how life is like dealing with ptsd and it got to much for even drunk me and I said I need some time to relax so I went into a different room to do some breathing exercises to calm myself down but he followed me into the room and continued to talk to me.... So I stud up and pushed him. Then he got really aggressive and I was ready for combat and my wife stepped in and did her best to keep the peace. I ended up deciding that I needed to get out of the situation before I did something I regret so I went for a two hour walk. After I came back he said some stuff about never laying my hands on him ever again and I didn't say anything because I would have said something I regretted in the morning and now I'm upstairs away from him in mutt wife and my bedroom doing my breathing techniques as I write this to calm myself down.
You did good.....always remember that. Me on the other hand, I would have beat the f*cking shit out of him after walking for 2 hours. And then when you get back, him saying something about never laying hands on him ever again!!! That is when I would put the boots to his ass, but good. But I am not you and you did what you thought best at the time.
But remember this, sometimes you have to get your point across and giving a good ass whooping works. Does not matter who they are!!! Over the years I have had a few relatives, that yes I kicked their ass real good. They don't f*ck with me....and that is good for them.....I sometimes wish they would, as I would kick their ass again, as I don't give a f*ck. They on the other hand, just have big mouths and think they are something. Not.......At times Brother, you need to take a stand and not let anyone push you around and walk on you.....IT WILL NOT BE GOOD FOR THE BEAST!!!! In the long run it's not good for your PTSD.......All this shit builds up after some time, you do not need this......
Sorry if I came across a hard ass, but that is just what I am. Anyone gets in my face they get one warning......
J R