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What Makes You Angry Today?

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Today? A little bit more than today for me. (Stand by for my book)

First, I've been living in an apartment close to the office I work at for almost a year now. I lay down to go to bed around 10PM, I start hearing a noise in the wall like something is dripping. So, I hit the wall a few times to make it shut up and doesn't stop. So, I turn up the TV louder so I can sleep. Three hours later I fall asleep. I wake up around 2AM and hear a load dripping. I look on the floor and notice water dripping from the ceiling thru the smoke detector. At this point, I say f*ck it, I'll deal with this shit later, might as well take a leak since I'm up.
I walk into the bathroom and it's flooded with water and water is dripping from the bathroom fan. Then the smoke detector starts going off, I go to disable it and all the rest of the detectors in the house start going off. So, I scramble to find the 24/7 maintenance number for the complex. It goes to voicemail. I leave a voicemail. An hour later some guy calls who can barely speak any English. He tells me someone will be there shortly to help. 30-45 minutes later two Mexican guys show up that are speaking broken English. They start looking around and say they will be back. They come back 30 minutes later and tell me the guy up stairs left his sink on. His sink.... It was plugged and left it on. They then start drilling holes in the wall, the ceiling then start ripping up my carpet. I tell them I don't have time for this bullshit, I've had an hour of sleep and they can come back to continue. They put a huge fan in my bedroom and a dehumidifier in there. So, no chance of going to sleep now.

I end up going to work earlier, I come home for lunch and there's cut outs in the walls and two ceilings. One hole in the wall in the bedroom, one in the bathroom, then a hole in the ceiling above the kitchen and another one in the bathroom ceiling. Another person who I could barely understand, tells me that it's going to take a week to a week and a half for it to dry and get repaired. That I should call my insurance company and file a claim. That the insurance company would put me up in a hotel and that I should go talk to the office manager.

I go to talk to the office manager, keep in mind, no one from management has reached out to me even though I left them a voicemail at 2AM letting them know what's going on. She had the "Well, I can't do anything for you attitude." She tells me to file an insurance company but they weren't doing anything for me. I asked about the rent that was doing and if they're making any adjustments to it, they tell me they wouldn't. They won't be moving me to another unit or covering hotel costs. I thank her for being so proactive in contacting me and let her know what's going on. She tells me someone talked to me about it. I let her know the people I've spoken with could barely speak English, then she got super defensive and reminded her that I'm the one paying for rent on a place that's been damaged, I've been unable to sleep, she continued with her attitude so I walked out because I was about to lose it.

I try to go back to work, however, at that point I was so mad that I couldn't focus. I end up leaving to figure out where I'm suppose to sleep and get ready for the non profit event. Kirsten (My ex) went with me for support. We get there and she gets a call that her daughter is going to the hospital. She fell down and has a deep cut on her face. I finish the movie (The PTSD Documentary) and Kirsten comes back to bring me to the hospital. I spend 5hrs at the hospital while she gets stitched up. I get home by 2AM, get about 4 hours of sleep and head back to work. Kirsten is now going back and forth with manager trying to get them to make this right and of course they tell her to work with the insurance company and of course with the insurance company they tell us not to file because it's only for property damage. None of my stuff yet has been damaged. I've just had to wash everything in the bathroom and bedroom closet. So, no reason to file a $500 deductible.

We're on day 7, it's still being repaired. Still no apology from management or course of action to make it right. Thankfully my lease is up next month.
 
Well that totally blows. The rental company clearly sucks, they should make it right by putting you up at a hotel especially since none of this is your fault. I get it that they are paying for the repairs, but part of repairs is taking care of the person... Call the city or town business office and report them for not moving you out of a damaged apt and still charging you. Or maybe the local housing authority to report them.

After you move out, write them a stinging review on Yelp and file a complaint with the local chamber of commerce, housing authority and better business bureau. Might not help you, but hopefully will put them on notice and warn others.

Hope it gets cleared up soon, that is surely a health concern.
 
I think I'm just about done with everything..I mean EVERYTHING! f*cking people, I really hate people...most of them anyway. I'm sick of Trump, and Clinton, and Obama..I'm f*cking sick of liberals and conservatives, Bernie f*cking Saunders. I'm just absolutely tired of this world and all the bullshit that goes with it. My mother is dying, my country is dying, my faith in the entire human f*cking race is DEAD. I don't give a flying f*ck anymore about the people dying at the hands of ISIS, I could care less if the entire middle east goes up in flames at the hands of DAESH or Hamas. I do not give a shit about whats in store for America. f*cking Christians and muslims, I hope they destroy each other. Facebook makes me want to kill even more. Especially when canadians , mexicans, and even Britts think they have the answer to Americas political problems and feel that their advise is sorely needed or that their opinion means anything to me. I'm cleaning out my facebook when I get home tonight...family..friends...whatever I'm thinning the f*cking herd..if i make it home..f*cking tired of all of it. Tired of waking up every morning, I really am.
 
Attila, I think we all are there too. I look at Trump and see a bar fight coming. I just came here to get a beer, chat with some friends, and go home.

It's then that I look back to what I have done. How did I ever get through all the training I had? How did I ever get through a friend shooting himself so he would not get captured. How did I get through sitting in the jungle for two days and nights carrying a corpse. All the aphorisms come to mind.

I can make it when I think of all the s$it I have been through. Don't mean nothin'. Don't mean nothin'. Don't mean nothin'. One foot after another and keep walkin'. I am still in the fight.
 
Still fighting with management about the flood damage. I ended up pulling out the disabled veteran card and threatened complaints with the government and now all the sudden they want to help... They're going to prorate water and electric cost. They're working on a prorate for rent and reimbursement for travel/food expenses that I had. We'll see how long it takes to get the check.

Work is pissing me off and stressing me out so much that I filed paperwork for FMLA. Boss continues to threaten mandatory overtime. I don't mind doing it when I can but don't like being force. Strange how I still don't like being told what to f*cking do. I'm burnt the f*ck out with that place.

I'm tired of the political battles. They're all shitty choices. Hillary is f*ckin scum, Bernie wants to give everyone free everything instead of working for it, Cruz has an annoying voice and I can't trust him, Trump is talk before you think kind of guy and the media spins it all into something it's not. It's all a shit storm, so, I'll just sit back and watch the world burn at this point
 
People never cease to amaze me. I've always missed the Army. Training, war, everything. I've never felt I belong in the civilian world. All these people around me, seem like foreigners. I feel like I'm not even in my country anymore. I detest almost every civilian I come in contact with. They are all, whimpy, crybaby f*cks, with no sense of honor, and not one f*cking shred of courage. I served my country, defended freedom(yeah right), while these assholes were worrying about pathetic shit. I'm so full of anger and hate right now. I've come to the realization that I pretty much hate christians and goatf*ckers about the same. I tell you one damn thing these christian assholes here where I work are the most evil, non-christian acting bunch of jerks, that i've ever seen...I believe in God, and I also believe that there is going to be a special place in hell reserved for these pieces of shit. People say be careful what you wish for...well I wish that the shit would hit the fan already..there's a lot of f*ckers that I want to put in the ground, for Americas sake, and my f*cking sanity. Anybody wants to hook up with me when the shtf you can find me by following the trail of scalped, ear less bodies. Done with everybody and everything civilian. Rant over.
 
I agree with you @atilla . I hate the world, I hate everything and everybody right now. I keep saying Stop the merry go round, I want to get the f*ck off. I'm so tired of trying to 'fit' in with this new world. It has become clear to me that I just don't fit in anywhere. I have owned my house for 27 years, only lived in it for less than 10, but I moved back here 2 years ago and it has been total chaos and a living hell for me. When I try to talk with anyone about how I feel about the chaos in this town, they just say oh it isn't that bad... WTF???? Are you kidding me? I guess it is true, you can never go home. I feel like a gypsy or hobo, about to take off on a road trip to get the f*ck away from here and maybe find a new place to live, at least until the chaos of that shit hole catches up to me. Does it ever get better, because it sure doesn't feel like it will for me....:notworthy:
 
I hear you all, for sure.
Can't tell the future all I know is some days are easier than others. And from suffering comes growth and strength and realization.
However too much suffering is what I feel we all suffer from. I have always been on the fence about religion an religious groups.
But we still prayed before every mission overseas. Because as well all know when the shit goes down an your in a corner or need all
help you can get you'll turn religious an ask God for assistance. At least in my own case. I know I have. This body's only temporary.

I do believe or maybe hope that there is a point to all this. And part of me does believe there will be long as we hang in there.
There has been many moments in life where I thought to myself only by the grace of God am I still here now. For a purpose soon to be
disclosed perhaps.
 
I agree with you @atilla . I hate the world, I hate everything and everybody right now. I keep saying Stop the merry go round, I want to get the f*ck off. I'm so tired of trying to 'fit' in with this new world. It has become clear to me that I just don't fit in anywhere. I have owned my house for 27 years, only lived in it for less than 10, but I moved back here 2 years ago and it has been total chaos and a living hell for me. When I try to talk with anyone about how I feel about the chaos in this town, they just say oh it isn't that bad... WTF???? Are you kidding me? I guess it is true, you can never go home. I feel like a gypsy or hobo, about to take off on a road trip to get the f*ck away from here and maybe find a new place to live, at least until the chaos of that shit hole catches up to me. Does it ever get better, because it sure doesn't feel like it will for me....:notworthy:

I see some of me in there.....I am just getting old and think, why should I care about the world??? But I still do. We moved from Kent, WA (Seattle) down here to Alamogordo, NM for retirement, cheap place to live. Got here in June 2010. I would say some places may be better than others, but I guessing you will still find shit to deal with wherever you/we go....It never stops.....may even go f*cking down hill somewhat out of the blue and you don't see it coming. Did with me when my wife died, everything Changed in an instant .

We never know when it's going to go south....Does it ever get better??? I don't think you can answer that question with a Yes or No......It's that we all live in a flux of change!!! Some good and some not so good.....but it's just change and how we try and live with it......Sometimes we get some happy time, than maybe some sad and other times just f*ckING DUMPED ON.....We just need to try and learn how to deal with it, be ready for it if we can.....Change is never easy, I have been learning how to deal with it, for a tad over a year.....Some days are a lot better than others....I just keep working on it every day and do my best.

Now if we are talking about the BEAST??? Yes, over time things can and will get better. Just take's some hard work!!!

J R
 
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