What Makes You Sad Today

[Deleted member 43454]

Dang sorry to hear that Revan...

For me what made me sad today was Keno the husky has some intense seizures he's on medication for them...
But damn man.. he was laying on my bed behind me right up next to the AC unit for maximum coolness. As I was
getting ready to head out, I saw it begin an it never gets any easier every time he has one I think it might be his last...
just because of the sheer violence of them... his whole body contracts as I suppose a human would..
This time it was so bad his saliva flew a few feet and he urinated on my bed... I just pet him and calmly talk to him during these
attacks... until slowly they cease an the convulsions stop.

I could only imagine living with this or having a close relative or child suffer from such a horrible thing...
And to think marijuana helps with seizures even my dog is smart enough to know weed helps... If he's near by while I rip a bowl he will come up
and ask for the smoke every time.

 

[vikingr24]

Darth,

It is a shit sandwich when that happens. And it ain't fair either. Big hug. Charlie Mike.

 

[atilla]

So sorry for your loss Revan
CM

 

[Deleted member 43454]

I left my mind across the sea,
In a bomb ridden land who's resources were sought after by my country.
Born with two eyes but not until after would I fully see.
That there was no love down this path, only misery.

I left my mind across the sea,
In Afghanistan I sacrificed a part of me.
Just to survive and survive we did.
We all took our hits, but I had to make
a choice which contradicted my morality.

But what morality did I have?
I was trained from youth to kill a man.
My platoon made it back.
No longer are there bomb ridden road's
and constant rocket attack's.
But still there's this shadow lurking behind my back.

What a way to live, what a punishment.
I'm not even 30 and I'm fed up with it.
But many from other platoon's gave their all.
Here I am home in my own prison, chipping at the walls.
With the people of my country viewing me as mad.
Well, if they only knew the limited choices we had.
Over there in the bomb ridden roads of Afghanistan.

In their minds we probably rode around shooting all that moved.
But in reality the constant fear of prison & reprocussion loomed.
More restrictions imposed in a war zone than the escalation of
force procedures of police in the homeland. And justice doesn't
apply to those with a political stand. Some days I just wish
I never made it through and ended up deceased. Maybe then
I'd finally be able to experience the peace.

 

[Terrier]

Strong words but on point. Keep the faith....

 

[vikingr24]

I read where the guy who allegedly ambushed the cops in Baton Rouge had PTSD. So now I am sure we are all branded with the psych image.

Try to remember and tell others. When someone goes on a rampage like that, it is usually not PTSD but something else. Schizophrenia is often the case. Big difference between paranoia and heightened awareness, which is what we have. The sad thing is we will usually take violence out on ourselves and at an alarming rate.

Don't let'em shake you up.

 

[Deleted member 43454]

True that thanks Viking. That's exactly what it's felt like recently since the recent shootings. More stigma but you're right can't let em shake us up.
Sometimes I let people know I have PTSD just to give them a different perspective on how we act. In a polite and reserved manor is the best I can do.
Usually end up regretting it but I know their thinking differently afterwards and if not f*ck em'.

 

[Chin Strapped]

I used to feel ok about being a veteran with ptsd, it was OK to be different after combat. Now I feel a bit pathetic really. Like I should be over it. Disenfranchised.

Why me when so many others went to war too and we're fine. Weak.

Depression. f*ck off.

 

[Deleted member 43454]

Try not to beat yourself up too bad Dan.
I was feeling like that yesterday as though I should be "over" this.
Everyone's experiences in life are different. The amount of what's gone on in their life to traumatic stuff, we're just born fighters man.

We've been through extraordinary things and lost extraordinary people buddy.
You're not weak every day you choose to live you stick a middle finger up in the face of the beast.
If other's don't understand in public etc, just see it as their own ignorance as to the situations that transpired.

 

[Deleted member 43454]

May they rest in peace and the Lord of hosts bless their families.

 

[Ronin1]

My life makes me sad. Very sad.
Try to becoming a chef, but no. Can't even do that...

 

[Deleted member 43454]

My life makes me sad. Very sad.
Try to becoming a chef, but no. Can't even do that...

What happened Ronin?