What Symptom Frustrates You The Most?

[bell]

This kind of echoes others above, but for me, the worst thing is my inability to believe that good things will happen and stay that way... that they're not just fleeting moments in time. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy to be able to see these happy fleeting moments in time (as there was a time I couldn't see them at all), but I have a hard time gripping the fact that it's possible for good long-lasting things to happen, y'know?

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Obsessions.

Count me in the big "DUH" camp but it wasn't until recently that I realized this symptom goes beyond PTSD. It is by far my worst symptom. When it's under control, my PTSD is about 100x easier to control. When the obsessions kick in, all bets are off.

PTSD wise, I hate the emotional flashbacks.

 

[RussH]

PTSD wise, I hate the emotional flashbacks.

Me too.

@bell I truly hope and pray for a long string of goo

 

[gone]

my death/catastrophe "day-mares."

Me too. They suck.

the most frustrating thing for me I think is my reaction to anger - I either crumble or I am ready to fight to the death. I need an in-between response!

Me too. Kind of amazed I'm still alive.

Worst thing for me though is my memory. Major amnesia from childhood sexual abuse, also neglect, also teenage stuff. The memory loss comes with me through time though. In therapy, I'm beginning to see that this chronic amnesia may be related to dissociation. I never knew I was dissociating until a month or so ago.

I get triggered super easily in the movies. So many movies I'm told I've seen—even the day after—and I have zero memory of them. This just makes me feel crazy.

 

[RussH]

I get triggered super easily in the movies. So many movies I'm told I've seen—even the day after—and I have zero memory of them. This just makes me feel crazy.

Amne, I am sorry. I know this must be hard for you. I pray for your healing.

 

[The Albatross]

I think the thing that frustrates me the most is the insidiousness of this thing. It can ambush me at the most seemingly inane times, situations, or innocuous interactions with people. I can have weeks to months of nearly symptom free time then get snapped from a person, a smell, a trigger object. I really hate the jolts. One moment I'm okay, the next I'm not and I'm suddenly clawing my way out of it or trying to prevent the down cycling.

The unpredictability of this thing bugs the crap out of me.

 

[Hashi]

At this point, anxiety. It's hideous and I'm sick of dealing with it for most of the day, every day.

 

[RussH]

Another thing that frustrates me is my overreacting emotionally when someone does something for me, or says something nice to me. I will start tearing up, and then quickly have to hide my face so they don't see it. I still expect bad things, evil things from people, so when something nice happens it takes me by suprise, and I overreact.

 

[Powder]

Lately it's the left eye twitch/spasm. My eye starts to close up on it's own, and I have to work to keep it open. It makes it that much more difficult for me to see. I get a bit of tunnel vision during stress in public areas anyway, and the left eye trying to close makes it worse. I couldn't find my Debit card and had to use a credit card I didn't want to use because I couldn't see the card until the transaction ended.

This goes with looking for things. I have been having a very hard time staying calm while looking for anything. If I don't find it immediately, I start to feel panicky. I have no idea why this is happening either. I can't see how it relates to my PTSD. Guess that's why I read it's called "phobia of daily life" that comes with complex PTSD. The anxiety generalizes easily to daily life action systems.

 

[Notsowild]

I think the worst is when my heart starts racing because I was recently diagnosed with arrhythmia and I think I might have a stroke or heart attack

 

[untiltoday]

I hate all of my social/people problems in general: talking normally, eye contact, using the tone I mean...connecting.

 

[Emily18]

I have a very strong love/hate relationship with dissociation. It frustrates me to no end to feel the disconnectedness or have nothing where memories should be.

I also am frustrated with the irrational fears that I now have that often send me into an even higher state of alertness than usual.