Childhood What To Do?

[lostforgottensoul]

Wow @Freedomfighter!

@CrowFeather, I had a few stuffed toys like that. The one that had association the most I gave to my therapist. I was using it as a way of punishment but couldn't throw it away myself. I tell myself he has it though I am sure he threw it away.

The others, I repurposed them. I made a quilt that had fabic from other GOOD memories, therefore it wasn't just the fabic of the bad ones or else I think it would still associate bad. Some new fabic as well as I was making a new life for myself. I love it now and sleep with it every night. It signafies new and recovery and growth.

One I let my dog have whom tore it into a millon pieces right in front of me within a few mins. I loved watching it be ripped to pieces.

Putting it on a small boat or floating whatever and sending it off to sea seems fitting. You are sending away your bad memories and starting new and fresh.

I do understand this issue though.

I must say, though, that thing is rather creepy to me. Lol. Sorry.

 

[anonymous]

Exactly @Freedomfighter . You've got it perfectly . though the person who gave me the thing wasn't the pedophile , she was directly commiserate . it's a generational thing & her son (my grandfather ) was one of the men in my young life who assaulted me. the other was my brother. seems like they simply accepted the behavior as what men do. disgusting . thanks for the new perspective . I the I could just throw it away but I will do the boat on fire thing to honor that child who survived