What will happen if I mention possible abusive past relationship to my psychiatrist?

[Pauline]

Hey guys so I have my psychiatrist appointment this week again as it is every month. I wanted to express to my psychiatrist my fear of my father and how I feel it might have been him who abused me when I was younger my only concern is confidentially I also feel like I'm going against my dad because he is paying for my sessions he still has control over me money wise and this is irritating me as I feel trapped I have noticed a couple of signs that are reacurring
1 when I go home my childlike voice is dominant more so when I live on my own
2 my hyper arousal is worse when I am with my family
3 my chest pains and developing shoulder pain is back when I am around my family
4 I feel 4 years old when I am in their presence more so when I am away

I have heard of this thing called displacement in therapy but I actually don't know if this is my issue or not

My question is that if I mention this to my psychiatrist what would happen? I have other siblings who clearly love my dad so it's not fair on them but if something did happen to me which I beleive did I just want to heal and get better and to be honest I don't really care what happens to him

If anyone has any advice on this it would be great I have thankfully kept a trauma journal for when I do change into my childlike voice so I am going to show it to my psychiatrist I tried expressing this to my mother but she is living under a rock and will never change so I'm pretty much on my own with this one
It's just so unfair I have lots of other good things in my life and this is just ruining it I hate feeling trapped any advice would be helpful X

 

[Freida]

I also feel like I'm going against my dad because he is paying for my sessions he still has control over me money wise

If he abused you the least he can do is pay for your therapy. He owes you.

My question is that if I mention this to my psychiatrist what would happen?

Its ok to start the converstation by asking the question. "I think I want to talk about childhood abuse -- what happens next if I do"

I have other siblings

who may still be at risk.

Its a tough choice, but you are in therapy to get better. These hard conversations are part of that process. :hug:

 

[digger]

my only concern is confidentially

I have other siblings

Are any of your siblings still minors?

 

[Pauline]

No we are all grown ups and they go to university sometimes we go home on occasion they don't have the same problem as me though like none of them have the childlike voice I am just terrified to mentioned it to my psychiatrist because I think I will just be so overwhelmed and start talking about my bear and moose ( my cuddly toys) and how much he scares me I kind of don't want to loose it in his office!

 

[grit]

Pauline
The most important and healing thing (in my opinion is) your own acknowledgement of your past and what happened to you. I think this truly shows your resilience to live with a person whom you also believe violate you (not to mention a parent). Please stay strong.
I love how Frieda ask that you can ask your doctor what happens if you disclose a matter that may have criminal element (depending where you are in the world - some countries you can bring criminal charges at any time...if you feel that way). But you can ask about confidentiality and disclosure and anything about your safety.
I am truly sorry you experience this and your body is communicating with you this level. I am wishing you well.

 

[Pauline]

Thankyou ?

 

[Starfire]

Not sure of your question. Are you concerned about confidentiality? Or are you concerned your Psychiatrist may feel compelled to take some action? If so, they usually have a policy you can ask about. Take care of yourself.