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What Would You Have Done?

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Bookoffee

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Friday night into Saturday morning around 1am someone rang my doorbell. (I have NEVER had my bell ring that late) Whenever my doorbell rings anytime of the day, I will not answer it unless I knew who it is before hand. My wife was working the overnight shift so when I heard the bell, I got excited instead of scared. I automatically thought it was my wife with an arm full of fast-food.

I ran down to the door and opened it to be face with a late teen/young adult. He asked me if I was the lady with the small dog? (I am). I asked him why and he mumbled something about looking for his mother. I hurried and closed my door and put all the locks on. I watched them through the window. The kid got into SUV mini-van type car. ( I do not know one thing about cars, makes or models). He was the passenger and he was talking with the driver. I saw the kid look through his phone. I tried too see if there was anyone in the back but I couldn't see anything. It was too dark. (I live on the second floor).

I texted my wife and explained what happened. She told me it was probably just that, someone's kid looking for their mother at closing hours in the middle of the city, and how our neighborhood has a lot of new people.

Last night at 730, I took my dog for a walk. Before I got to the end of the street a man dressed in all black with a poffy jacket was walking down the main street looking ahead of him. ( I was to the left of him on my street). When he go to the crossing of the end of my road, he noticed me. He slowed his walk down and kept looking back at us.

By the time my dog was done with her business, I crossed the road to get onto the main street. At that point the man in black was just feet away from the intersection. I didn't walk far because the corner apartment building has a beautiful small lawn with two trees on it. My dog loves that lawn and the first thing she does is jump on it to sniff everything and roll around.

While my dog was doing her thing, I look down to the end of the intersection to see what was happen with man in black. He had stopped walking and was watching me. I grabbed my dog and ran back to my place. I threw her waste away under my dark carport. I thought to myself I better get my pepper spray ready. I looked to make to sure it was off safety and aimed.

When I come out from under my carport, the man in black was standing across the street watching me and my dog!

I ran to my apartment which was unlocked because I couldn't find my house key. I locked up the house and explained to my wife what happened. She blamed it on my anxiety, agoraphobia, unrealistic ability to measure distances, time, and situations.

But this was way too clear for me. I KNEW he was after me. She wouldn't listen to me and was becoming as what I thought she may have been angry, frustrated and rude. I ended the conversation and this morning went to Facebook. I explained what happen and my sister, who is the only relative that knows where I live, said that it was unsafe and very scary. I asked her if I should go to the Police and tell them. I was scared he would hurt someone. She thought it was a good idea to let them know. It was an action I wanted to take for the safety of others and myself.

I ran to the police station ( two to three blocks from my house) and explained everything. During a texting conversation with my wife, I explained about going to the police. When she comes home she abruptly says to me well are we going to talk about you going to the police. It was the way she used her words and the tone. It felt like she was mad.

She tried to tell me that it was my anxiety and I was over reacting and she had to figure out if I needed to go back to the hospital. She said it was impossible for someone to get where he was in that amount of time. I told her I knew that unless he walked really fast or ran. She continued to argue with me so I walked away from her and we haven't been in the same room.

What should I do? How can I convince her it was the same guy?

I know for a fact it was because of his 'puffy' black jacket. I laughed because my mother brought me one something like it and I hated it.
 
ETA... Sorry, missed your Q. How to convince her? Let's say you've just convinced me. I will completely buy it's the same guy. It still doesn't read as 911 to me. The only weird/threatening behavior you described was your own. People watch people with dogs. Movement attracts the eye, so dogs are natural attention whores. (Dogs/ Kids/ Skateboarders/ Joggers/ Cars... People are wired to follow movement). Suddenly bolting like you did? Absolutely guarantees that anyone nearby you would be watching you like a hawk, because of the movement, but also because of the Fear! Alarm! Fear! ... Which is the only thing that attracts attention more than movement.

Because you bolted out of fear, you would have set off alarm bells jangling down everyone who saw you do it... To the point that most people in that situation would at least jerk to follow you (out of instinct, and then kind of glare & shake themselves or shout angrily at you depending on how hard they were hit, coming down from a brief adrenaline rush), meanwhile good natured people will often beeline to see if you need help.

So, yeah. Even if I 100% believe you that he was there & everything you say happened happened (and I do)... It still reads to me as people being normal around someone having a massive anxiety spike.
 
It still doesn't read as 911 to me. The only weird/threatening behavior you described was your own.

It still reads to me as people being normal around someone having a massive anxiety spike.

I have no social queues. My wife is always telling me that I don't act 'normal' when we are public. She will stand close to me and tell me how to act, what to do or stop doing something, will explain how I look and seem. When she does this, it just intensives my anxiety and the harder it becomes to feel safe and 'normal'

I just read in a different post that some people are brusque. I never stopped to think that maybe she is and how it threatens me.
 
@Bookoffee But that word "brusque" was used in the other thread for Cognitive Distortions.:confused: Remember?:hug:

"1. Personalizing.


Taking something personally that may not be personal. Seeing events as consequences of your actions when there are other possibilities. For example, believing someone’s brusque tone must be because they’re irritated with you.":hug:

Be gentle to yourself and her...negative triggering is hard to go through.
 
I have been trying to bring up this subject again to apologize to her for not trusting her.

She is in so much pain right now. I want her to know I am sorry I abandoned her and I am going to do my everything to come back out.

We are.not celebrating Christmas and it kills her. I want to write her a letter she will take the time to.hear.

Should I or should I leave her alone like she asks me too?
 
Ok.
I'm going to take a totally different take on it?

-Your wife was not physically present and did not see the guy.-

Neither she, nor I, nor anyone...nor even YOU...know if you were overreacting or not.
You might have been.
You might have BEEN TOTALLY ACCURATE and that guy was exactly the threat you thought he was.
...You reacted the way you did and nothing bad happened.
The consequences of overreacting? One needless freakout. The consequences of UNDERREACTING? Being robbed, injured, violated, kidnapped, killed...
I would rather err *slightly* ( but not grossly) on the side of overreaction.

I am not going to tell you you were flipping out about nothing, because, I just was not there to judge for myself.

Story time:
...One day I went running in a park. It was sunny, but very cold. I had my nose and mouth covered due to asthma, and my head covered due to cold...
I came running out from under the trees...and a woman saw me all covered up? I happened to be running in her direction. She bolted in terror.

Oops.
I can't say I blame her though, I probably looked like an axe murderer. She overreacted, I was just trying to work out without having an asthma attack.

Chances are? Dude was harmless. Or even nonexistent, an hallucination. But the penalty for being wrong if he is real and NOT harmless can be pretty damn high.
 
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I think @Stickler has a point. I know for myself I'm usually too mistrusting (not paranoid but suspicious), & yet I have a long history of grossly minimizing what does occur when it does. I just had a conversation about this the other day, I did not realize that it was my internal belief that 911 was (as applied to myself) applicable to call for anything other than imminent & likely certain death only (I thought other than that I was supposed to call 'Non-Emergency'.).Thanks @Stickler.

Though I don't know all the details, the best thing is, all is ok. Hopefully too you can reduce your anxiety, & that your wife will forgive you if there is need to.
 
I...know that if someone responded to me the way your wife responded to you?
It would remind me very much of the way my mom responded to a couple of parts of my trauma, this when it was happening?
She did so in a way that shut down my ability to talk about it.
I think because subconsciously? Mom did not want to hear it?
Mom WANTED to believe I was safe.

I was not safe at all.

I think going to the police was possibly a bit much?
But why would your wife decide that she might need to hospitalize you when *she was not there* to assess whether or not scary dude was stalking you or not?
Tbh, the police won't think much of your report unless your description matches that of someone committing some crimes, so no harm, no foul, methinks.

Regarding " Acting normal..."
If someone i was with criticized me for not acting normal in public?
They'd get told that I am bloody well NOT normal and if they want normal they need to go somewhere else because I am NOT going to try to PRETEND to be a normal person so that they can look good in front of a bunch of bloody strangers who are obviously more f*cking important than myself to them anyway, and I will never be some shiny trophy person that will make them look good to random people, so why the hell are they with me at all?
:mad:
I hope I'd phrase it a bit more diplomatically, but really...I have enough self-confidence problems without someone I care about busting my ovaries like that. It's far more important to relax than to constantly worry about crafting a supposedly-normal appearance.
 
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Yes @Stickler I'd want the truth, but if you can't rely on others caring to have your back too it feels they're pretty much strangers (even if they're not). I personally already feel like a disappointment, & question my reality or 'right to rights'.
 
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