What's Keeping You Alive?

[Jade-]

Forgot about Christmas this week.

I wish I could 'forget'....

 

[KP the nut]

I wish I could 'forget'....

Hang in Jadebear. Have you anyone to share the day with?

 

[deer_in_headlights]

((((((((((((((((Jadebear)))))))))))))))
love,
deer

 

[Pink77]

No, I meant the feeling that its going to be okay grows less every day.

Sorry for my misunderstanding. And I'm sorry that you feel the way you do when you are finished with a session with your counselor. I agree with Jadebear: Things will be ok and you gotta just believe they will and keep fighting. Never give up hope!

 

[Bartie]

What's keeping me going, my wee little doggie who is called mia!
Sheer stubborness and fight.
And believe that things eventually have to improve...!

 

[shadowchaser]

My art work. It gives me an outlet to go to were everything is safe and I'm in control.

 

[curiouser]

Put simply, it's me. :)

 

[snugglepuss]

At this point my two dogs and my cat.

I know I go on an almost rant in introductions but what has been going on over the last year is still to much of an open sore to share. Those three animals are all I have left.

Working at the animal shelter was what literally saved my life 4 years ago. I can honestly say that if I didn't have the animals to get up and go to, I would be dead.

And they are what really keep me going now too. I have a very small business doing pet and house sitting, and my dog lives with my mum and her two dogs in the same city as me.

If I am having a really black heavy day, and I force myself to go out when all I really want to do is sleep so I can avoid the shitty feelings, I will seek out contact with an animal. And no matter how brief that contact is, it always helps.

 

[shadowchaser]

Today was a knitting day.when I start something I can't leave it alone till it's done. Keeps me going in a strange way.

 

[externalsmile]

The people who believe in me.

The kind words people have said to me.

 

[Jade-]

I feel I've achieved something. I hope you feel the same when (not if) your tree goes up.

I got my tree put up last night. I do feel a bit better now that I did. It just felt like such a depressing thing to do before. I was thinking that putting it up would just be a constant reminder of how f*cked up my life is.

But it was the opposite....It makes me feel like no matter what's going on, there's still some good , I just gotta put in some effort and allow myself to feel/see the good stuff.

 

[KP the nut]

Well done JB, you've done well. ((((((HUGS))))))