When Do Things Get Better?

[catjudo]

The initial diagnosis of post traumatic stress was almost 10 years ago. In 2001, I was urged to go to a psychiatrist by the school I was attending for some strange behavior. I'm not sure who reported me, but the school obviously knew I was having problems.

The psychiatrist diagnosed me as PTSD, which I had no idea what it was, nor did I actually care. What confused me at that time was that I had never considered myself a victim of trauma.

PTSD was never a diagnosis, and in the culture I live in, with the achievements and experiences I had gone through, no one ever believed that this to be something that could be serious or long term.

I thought I was understanding slamkwon. I thought he was saying that he was diagnosed with PTSD by a psychiatrist 10 years ago. He then lied about other disorders to manipulate other doctors into giving him medications that he wanted. However, now that you point out your confusion, Herc, I notice that in the same post he says he was diagnosed 10 years ago and then later says that PTSD was never a diagnosis.

slamkown--it is confusing. Can you help us to better understand what you're trying to explain? :dontknow:

 

[wonderwall]

Hi

I think he was saying that he was diagnosed with it 10 yrs previous. But the other people in the interim didn't make that diagnosis.( oF PTSD)

I had a breakdown and know how difficult it can be. I don't take medication as it not for me.

If you have anxiety e.tc. And you initally had a diagnosis of PTSD. What were the circumstances of the original PTSD diagnosis. You don't have to be in war or raped to have PTSD.

What stressors were in your life at this time.

If you seek sources of help. Shop around. My advice is trust your self.

So you are probably woried about the stigma. Here in the u.k I worry for the stigma too. Possibly there might be some good online councelling sources as a start. I m not sure of these. Maybe someone on this site knows a good place for online councelling for a good place to start.

I too am seeking to be whole without the aid of medication.

:smile:

 

[slamkwon]

I apologize for the confusion. I seem to do that a lot these days.

<10years=diagnosed with PTSD.
Left US to serve military in native country.
On release went to DR. for problems concentrating.
<2years=extreme attack.
Diagnosed several different things including depression, anxiety, insomnia, ADHD and stress.

Have improved significantly since 2 years ago, but I'm not sure why. Stopped the use of all the SSRI's the dr's have put me on. Only thing that helps with the intense mind fog&confusion is the ritalin and the benzos. But ritalin reacts disgustingly over a period of time, and the benzos assist in the black outs when I drink. Drinking is an integrated part of working in the country I live in~ and it's also when my mind clears up and I can talk coherently and express myself/ideas the best.

Triggers? I haven't observed myself long enough to really know. I know stress is a huge factor as stress amplifies the mind fog and anxiety.

I remember the day clearly when the attack hit me. My pastor explained to me it was an attack from the devil. Though I'm struggling with faith, I can clearly say it was a very hellish experience. Mind racing, absolute uncontrol of my thoughts my skin wanting to be torn off.

This had happened to me before, perhaps twice before now that I think about it. But it never lasted this long. I think it was because I smoked weed? I believe weed helped... but I can't be sure. Or perhaps its what created the onset 2 years earlier.

It's strange, but even though I know it's just a mere problem of communication, me causing people confusion in this forum gave me extreme stress; heavy eyelids, heart thumping, adrenaline. Feelings of guilt and people not believing a word a said. Perhaps if it were 2 years ago, I would have just reacted in anger... or nonchalance. My sensitivity to things has increased 10 fold.

Anyways, thank you for listening. I hope I cleared some stuff up.

 

[wonderwall]

Hiys Slamwon
Don't worry for people not believing what you said. Forget Them. Dont worry either for confusing people in the forum.

Yes I got that you had been diagnosed witht PTSD in the past. Then a whole host of other things since then it made sense to me.
I ment by stress that in the past was there any stressfull situation that may have caused PTSD.
What I mean is many things can cause PTSD accidents, abuse, victimization e.t.c.
I just wondered if there were things in the past that may have caused these symptoms.

Peace to you

Wonderwall