Why Am I Self Sabatoging?

[Little Flower]

My anxiety is on a roller coaster n I cant find the brakes

 

[Lolly]

sorry that you've had such a trigger today. Don't forget to do your belly breathing and grounding, it will help. So will talking about it, so you're doing the right thing :)

Take care,

Lollipop :hug:

 

[Little Flower]

I abused my med by having a drink :(

Now I'm getting off site because I'm
Embarrassed Being stupid

 

[arfie]

Hope you keep trying, Little Flower. Even the greatest of performers have to go through some "sounding stupid" to achieve a great performance. Please keep trying. Healing happens. Hope it happens to you.

 

[WillyKat]

Try to understand two things:

• You're aware of it, and that's a very good sign.
• There is no embarrassment on this site. We all get into repetitive behaviors that don't' work. Its part of PTSD.

I have a very long history with repetitive behaviors that got me nowhere. As my therapist reminds me: because I was aware of them, I was finally able to put them aside. You'll get there too.

 

[Little Flower]

Thank u. I try to take it responsibly but sometimes when my body hurts n my mind won't rest I want numb it out instead of enduring it

 

[Little Flower]

I feel the need to get away from me.
I must numb my thoughts with med and couple drinks

 

[WillyKat]

It won't work, and you know this. You won't get away, and there's no must about this.

That's what the abusers want: to turn to substances. That's their hope. Don't fall into that trap. Please.

 

[Little Flower]

My coping strategies are failing me and I can't afford to see my T

 

[WillyKat]

Call a hotline if you need to. In the meantime, write down what you're dealing with, and post it here.

 

[Little Flower]

Sleep is no escape unless I tire or numb my feelings I don't take pain meds just Xanax n it's lost it's affect alone. I'm telling on myself in hope of someone making sense out of impulsiveness N I can't feel those awful memories

 

[Little Flower]

Thanx Wily. I'm reaching for help and understanding. Thanx for being around