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I've lived in Europe and overseas for quite a bit of my life, some big chunks. It was always a good experience. Why did I become so insecure and get so anxious and depressed when I moved back home to the States? I always wonder this. I think it has to do with the culture overall, and schooling - people are very insecure here...anxiety seems to be diffuse everywhere and part of everything. Everyone's painfully insecure, especially younger people, they think their worth depends on their looks or something. To me, it's the schooling. It's what I remember, it 's not like that most. It's not like that for some reason and for some reason schools and general culture is not so bad like that either. I can't figure it out. I think it has to do with consumerism and the media plays to our weaknesses and insecurities. We are a complete market oriented culture. Everybodies worried about stupid shit - the younger they are the worst it gets. That's the biggest thing.
I noticed that when I came here from abroad my anxiety seemed to jump 5 notches above. It was like everywhere I went someone was watching. You just get an insecure vibe overall from most Americans. It's as if everyone's paranoid and insecure, it's really miserable and depressing. Does anyone else notice this? It's also that people, I feel, have an approval addiction toward other people.
It's just not like that overall overseas and I do see the overall culture in the USA as toxic. I hate this shitty insecure vibe that everyone perpetuates, as if we're supposed to like do it. I hate it. I don't want to take part in it, it's small minded and stupid.
I'm not trying to sound prejudice or hateful or anything. I just noticed a drastic change in my overall mental health/ happiness and quality of life when I moved back to the States, sadly all for the negative. People are just worried about stupid shit and have forgot, in my opinion, how to just live life and relate to other people; they are worried about stupid shit.
It's bothering me so much, that I am seriously planning to move out of here. There are so many weirdo's here. I've never seen anything quite like it anywhere I've gone or anywhere I've been. It's alarming.
I noticed that when I came here from abroad my anxiety seemed to jump 5 notches above. It was like everywhere I went someone was watching. You just get an insecure vibe overall from most Americans. It's as if everyone's paranoid and insecure, it's really miserable and depressing. Does anyone else notice this? It's also that people, I feel, have an approval addiction toward other people.
It's just not like that overall overseas and I do see the overall culture in the USA as toxic. I hate this shitty insecure vibe that everyone perpetuates, as if we're supposed to like do it. I hate it. I don't want to take part in it, it's small minded and stupid.
I'm not trying to sound prejudice or hateful or anything. I just noticed a drastic change in my overall mental health/ happiness and quality of life when I moved back to the States, sadly all for the negative. People are just worried about stupid shit and have forgot, in my opinion, how to just live life and relate to other people; they are worried about stupid shit.
It's bothering me so much, that I am seriously planning to move out of here. There are so many weirdo's here. I've never seen anything quite like it anywhere I've gone or anywhere I've been. It's alarming.
