Will You Do Something New(-ish) Today?

[SammyKline]

I started taking herbs recently -last few days- and wow I am really surprised that they seem to actually work. Specifically they help to elevate my mood and give me a caffeine like boost without the caffeine. They give me a bit of a buzz also.

 

[Leda]

I´m going in to the city to have dinner with a good friend - and later we are going to see a play called "An ordinary day in hell". After that I´ll take the subway up to my daugthers where my husband is babysitting. For me this is a BIG step out of my comfort zone.

 

[Tinyflame]

Sammy,

May I ask you what herbs you tried?
Were you the person who mentioned Valerian Root?

Thanks

 

[SammyKline]

the ones proven to work for me are hops, passionflower, valerian root, st johns wort, and kavakava. i am experimenting with a few others as well.

 

[Luthien]

I got up at a normal hour today, made myself breakfast for the first time in ages, and then tidied up my room.
even those relatively small actions, that should be normal, are new for me.

I feel like it was a good start to the day, although I did wear myself out a little.

I am feeling good about what I accomplished.

 

[cragger65]

Nice job Luthien!! Sounds like a nice change. Good for you.

 

[fin]

yay us!!!YAY THIS FORUM!!

Patrick wicked...that list yay! hate to think of you "beating yourself bloody" but I know what you mean and yay progress not perfection (today it doesnt need to be "all or nothing"). Hope today was good for you also.

cragger thankyou as always...it does make a difference that we all know what each other means, and that means something when we empathise because we kind of know where the encouragement is coming from...(if you know what I mean)...I just read that back....(You gotta laugh I just keep going!!). Just keep trying and you are getting there...never give up -perseverence.

morgan thankyou fo you kind words of encouragement morgan, and I am with you on keeping it simple. I looked outside tonight and the sky was soo clear and the stars were out...I thought of your prayers morgan.... you rock girl!!

SammyKline cool with the herbs let us know how that goes wont you...I have heard that valerian is calming...I think it is a supliment here for sleep...but I could really be wrong as I have been recently...(words and allsorts). any way cool no caffeine- am hearing you with that I need no stimulant like caffeine but it would be good when I had trouble getting going...LOL PTSD stimulantVnon-stimulant.

Leda I have to say I googled an ordinary day ih hell and it sounded pretty interesting although I couldnt find any translations for tor ulven's work although there was something on you tube, it gave an idea... any way I'm rambling. I hope you had a lovely evening and that stepping out of your comfort zone was positive and you feel good about it Leda because it was a big step.

Luthien that is just brilliant hope you feel good about today...and its good to get tired and then sleep come easier... It was good to read that you have been able to eat some and that you are able to rest....motivation is just soo well its just...I cant think of the word...but I know and Im hoping you know I know I think we all know.....well done. Did you get the scented bath the other day? You encourage so much I hope that you are feeling encouraged.

Me I didnt freak out at the thought of being challenged by someone that doesnt know me or my life...so that was good. I have hopefully found a local(ish) EMDR therapist...we have yet to meet but she is trauma trained and if that doesnt work out (for whatever reason it wont be because I cant open up). Well if not that lady the EMDR specialist I saw that prepped me last year (but then got frozen out by the NHS) well I may be able to get a referral without having to go through the PCMHT...so YAY me...whoop whoop!!! LOL. I miss coffee and so I had de-caf...my treat. And I slept last night for 5 hours!!!!! yayay of course it took me until 5 or 6 in the morning to get to sleep but I did it. I want to say that I cleared my kitchen and some other stuff but I didnt but will do tomorrow. Today the priority was to be more proactive in trying to get treatment and not leave it to chance or whoever got stuck with my case notes. and that was what i hopefully started...

I do feel a little bewildered and I am hoping that my begining is making friends also...
bit by bit...moving the right way

 

[cragger65]

Beautiful Fin, everything moving in the right direction. Good for you taking charge of your treatment options, I know after my accidetn, I just got plain lucky I think.

 

[Luthien]

Fin,

Thanks so much for your kind words. I do know what you mean :)
I did have the scented bath the other day...but it wasn't a reward, because I didn't do anything else that day.
Still, even having the bath was new...at least I was out of bed...lol.

I am feeling very good about my day today. After I rested from cleaning, I went out thrift shopping with my MIL, and had a great time. I bought a wonderful big Blue Mountain Pottery vase that I just love...and am happy I was able to go out.

Good for you for taking charge and trying to take some control regarding your treatment. I hope everything works out for you in that area.

Did you just love that decaf? I hope so, because you deserved it. :)

I had some Cheetos as a reward today (they are like my biggest weakness ever) but I only had a few, and those few were so good, because I new I worked for them.

Congrats everyone else as well :)
This thread is great.

 

[fin]

Thankyou Luthien...

I understand about the bath not being a reward...It is part of looking after yourself ( I have to get a grip on that myself so I do understand).
But that was something that you did that day...so that was good.

It isnt necessarily about rewards- but I dont think there is anything wrong with a positive reward thing going on...its about being kind to ourselves as we move forward. And maybe in trying some things that would be good in that step is a step in itself.

I really believe that being kind to ourselves is a step also.
Appreciating that we are doing good stuff and exploring some.

"Maybe just by being kind to myself I will be taking a step forward." from my begining bit (first post of this thread).

I have read from your posts Luthien and know you are moving forward,- so cool.

~fin

 

[Irton Pike]

i am going to build a chicken coop today. Next week, I'll be going to look at chickens. Cool!

 

[fin]

yay those chickens Irton!!!...that sounds so cool, next week chickens. excellent

today I got a message from a friend ...she is having a hard time and wanted to come over to offload so tomorrow she is coming over.
Because of this I spent today sorting my house out...and am still trying to do it.

And Im glad ....
I know I wish I could just be doing it for me full stop but still... I am doing this because she is coming...and its ok for that to be my reason and its not that I am afraid or anything of what she will think...its because i know she struggles with mess and stuff like that. Not that I am catering to her...because Im not...but I know she is in a bad place and dont want to add to it. (Even if she cant cope with hearing my crap) actually that bit sounded bad

If she wasnt giving me notice I dont know if I could cope with her coming knowing that she has issues with my place looking rough. So I am glad that for once I have 24 hours to be able to do something, she wont be able to say anything by the time Ive finished (that didnt sound good either!!!)

Oh and it isnt as bad as that may have sounded...its organised chaos. LOL
oh hell who am I trying to kid....?... -(such denial). Its not good... but its me she's coming to talk to not my mess (and thats just an excuse now).

post fin post...now


~fin