Will You Do Something New(-ish) Today?

[cragger65]

Hey, Happy Birthday Fin!! Sorry, I'm a little late. Sounds like you had a good visit with your son, that is so great to hear. I'm so happy when people have a little good happen when their down, and I know I can well up at that too. Means we're still alive and fully human, I think.

Cheers luv!
Dave

 

[fin]

hey craggs.......thankyou

am the same it is so totally good to hear other people's good news, *hugs craggs.

Today I went to a music therapy class and "screamed through my flute"...and


....it was wicked.:Hug_emoticon:


I think I was "put" in it last sept, as something to keep me off my care teams backs after the EMDR fiasco. And there have been screw-ups with the psych telling me to leave it (which I was cool about as I would rather get treated for the trauma stuff) and then telling me not to and then again telling me to leave....ay-yi-yi!!!

Any way I only have a couple more left so Im cool whatever and I made the decison to stay, it really didnt seem right that the therapist was getting messed around either so.

I had not wanted to take my flute...hell I didnt really want to do music therapy at all;
After the psychotherapy went so badly I didnt want to be put off music...it is as though it is in the core of who I am (you know?). So I was hesitant...but I explained that to the young woman (trainee) and the head music therapist and she said I didnt need to go through the whole therapising bit...just play and talk about some of what it meant to me if I wanted to...rather than getting cross questioned which is kind of what I felt was happening at one point. It really wasnt fair tho' to her...(or me actually!!)anyway...

Because I grasp the whole music as a means to wellness thing, and its one to one, I really haven't felt self conscious about playing there.

And hell I have no more time to worry about looking like an idiot, so I have totally emersed myself in it when I am there. The only thing that I wasn't able to do was to take my flute -until today.

Aside to classical and baroque, I used to play improve and blues...hell I would play anything...so playing to get stuff out wasnt alien...but today was just FANTASTIC totally fantastic.... I truely did "SCREAMED through my flute".

Yay me and totally YaY the guy that suggested it....


oh and I almost forgot......she plays the harp! and its just beautiful, its amazing the sounds she can get from it....she did offer it to me...but I felt that wasnt quite on when I first started...soOo wish I had now.
it isnt one of those huge concert things....(not that there is anything wrong with them -(she did say she'd had trouble getting it in her car!!).....its beautiful maybe just below chest height and engraved with Celtic designs.

that was my day I did something new-ish

~fin

 

[2notbedefeated]

Hey Fin, I didn't know you played flute. I do too. I love harp and flute. I've never done music therapy, but I know music can be so therapeutic for me. I enjoy art therapy alot.

My newish thing, it may not seem like a big deal, but I took my daughter to her basketball game. It was at night. I don't like driving at night. I'm embarrassed to say this is the first basketball I've seen her play this season. I've just been sooooo not feeling well and up to doing it,but I did it tonight.

I felt so unmotivated and not feeling all that great today, but I made myself get out of the house an run an errand that I would usually have my hubby do.

I get scared driving places and taking risks to find other ways to get home, but today I took the back roads to get home, when usually I don't dare do anything like that because I am scared of getting lost. This is one of my big fears.

So, I guess that makes 3 things I did today which I normally wouldnt do. The biggest thing was taking that new route home and not freaking out when I got lost.

 

[fin]

thats so cool 2not...yay you

I think the other really biggest thing you did was see your daughter play basketball...am sure it will have been for her...YaY you 2not that is so cool.

WELL DONE...its gotta be a good feeling.
I am so encouraged by your stepping forward...wonderful 2not just wonderfull.

 

[2notbedefeated]

Thanks Fin,

It felt nice to do those things yesterday. I really need to work on my attiutudes.

I see my therapist today, but I hope to say that my newish thing for today is not to beat myself up or engage in self-harm today. Usually I do on "T" day.

Also, I want to try and not to engage in arguing or shouting, but be patient, and yet firm with my daughter.

I'll let you know how it goes.

 

[fin]

I'll be thinking of you....

 

[Mahtalat]

Today....something I did differently was to slow down, take a rest, and to watch Russian Cartoons, and to allow myself to play 'catch up'.

 

[fin]

I dont believe I have welcomed you to the forum Mahtalat....so Welcome and Hi :hello: (am not very good with the emoticons so that is my new-ish thing)

That sounds like a kind thing to do for yourself Mahtalat, hope the catching-up went well and that the rest was just that -peacefull.
I believe that we can sometimes forget that slowing down is good for us. We get to re-charge our batteries...and that has to be good thing to do.

 

[Mahtalat]

I dont believe I have welcomed you to the forum Mahtalat....so Welcome and Hi

Thank you Fin! It is really great meeting you as well :). It did go well, and then the next day everything fell back into place.

I am home again and not at school, which was purely not planned (2 hr delay). But while I am here I get to 'breathe' again. I'm on the PTSD forums, and today something new I am doing is 'trying' to get to know more people by at least saying hi or replying to them, which is really hard for me. I'm really shy on any kind of human interaction though certainly better 'online'.

And I am working on branching out here a bit more, like Shamsi does! It was nice meeting you too Fin :)! And you are right sometimes we need to just slow dowwwnnn, take a breath, and recharge! (which is what my life is now devoted too working on...removing/diminishing stress!)