I worked for Hallmark under contract for a while, decades back. Funny, they aren't the 'warm and fuzzy' company that one might think. I have it down as one of the two least humane companies I have worked in (I have worked in hundreds, so that is quite an honour).
The last Xmas I was with my twisted ex I wanted to make it very special for him and the kids. I went all out. I didn't realize that a few days prior he had called the alarm company to change the 'call list' so that when he started scaring the crap out of me with false alarms at the house, nobody would come to my aid. We won't even speak about what happened that Easter.
It is perhaps the betrayal. My stupidity. My idiotic, blind trust. I wish I could extend hugs on that day to you, but I am too busy, saber swinging, fighting to keep everyone away from me. It isn't that I won't go through that again, it is that I can't. I just want you to know that you are not alone....