You Know You Have PTSD When...

[IamJenna]

When u think ur doing ok & feeling "fine" despite an uneasy incling that there's something not so right with the unusual manic mood ur in & the sudden craving to pay way too much attention to a lot of unhealthy substances & old coping mechanisms. & the way ur mind is bring up a lot more shameful memories than the daily quota. To then realise ur really f*cking resentful underneath actually & Xmas is really bothering u more than u would like to admit. Ahhh confusing

 

[Deleted member 29920]

When it takes you a while to realise a situation didn't make you anxious because usually anxious is your default setting. And it shocks you that you didn't feel it for once.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

When you first become aware after a big overreaction that you are triggered big time and have been assuming.

 

[Lost Marbles]

when your co-workers during lunch break are discussing how the legal system should handle child sex offenders and you remain silent. Your silence is because all you are thinking is how the legal system should pay you to take care of them so you can torture them for the rest of their natural lives.

 

[IamJenna]

When u r aware that ur triggered & the horrible feelings inside r from ur traumatised younger self & r trying to stay present but keep flying out of ur body every 2 seconds. & r trying not to fight anyone or kill any1. Them some1 asks "y r u angry?"
When all ur doing is sitting & breathing trying to ground urself.

If only u knew y I was angry. But u wouldn't even understand & think that's crazy cos it happened years ago cos u would probably not c how I'm actually reliving it all right f*cking now.

 

[Anrish]

When your relatives...are somehow...strangers for you.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

When I am unaware of a huge trigger and get lost inside of my mind until the truth is pointed out in a loving and caring way.:arghh;:arghh;:arghh;:banghead::banghead:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

When you reach the moment when you get tempted to feel sorry for yourself and realize that is a dead end and you really do not want to go there and go and distract yourself to feel better.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

When you have to hide in your room on Christmas Day for self care to avoid seeing watching or being there while your adult daughter drinks alcohol since it triggers you.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

being there while your adult daughter drinks alcohol since it triggers you.

I have this issue with my daughter as well so I totally get you:hug::hug:

 

[EveHarrington]

When you have seriously involved mental debates over whether something is isolation/pushing people away, or taking healthy space.

BLAH.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I have this issue with my daughter as well

Really? Thank you for telling me that! I haven't talked to anyone else triggered by that before. I know I'm not the only person who gets triggered by it but, it sure felt like it. It can be such a lonely frustrating trigger too. I have to miss out on things. I pass on going places. I've been mocked teased and made fun of. Even after explaining how a trigger works that it's not always rational that it's not something I can control and that it's not something I get to choose. It's hard. And it's harder when people tell me that I'm just being hard on her. Like just for the sake of it. Yes. That's it. That's it exactly.