Your Ideal Life

[Daisy_May]

So I am moving across the country in December.

I have been trying to imagine what kind of job I will get, what kind of apartment/room I will rent, with roommates or not? What sort of courses I will take to get a new job, what kind of weekend mini-holidays I can take, the type of friends I hope to make, the kind of men I want to date, etc.

I used to be very good at daydreaming about the future, and reaching for the stars, but it seems like whatever I come up with I dismiss as unrealistic, or undeserving, or not possible, or that I'm not as smart as I think am and will fail.

So far I've come up with: a house in the forest outside a city, modern and all dark wood and on the small side, with a creek on the property. I want to go horseback riding on weekends and lots of hikes in the mountains. I want to meet someone who is incredibly, superhumanly patient and forgiving and non-judgemental. I want to work in marketing again, and take a web design course. I want to bike everywhere in the summer and swim a lot in the lakes in the mountains.

 

[intothelight]

Hi Daisy May,

What a beautiful idea for a thread. I am going to wait to post, as I don't think I've thought much lately about the future in a long-term sense.

Maybe its time to start doing so.

ITL

 

[Daisy_May]

I look forward to reading it, intothelight.

 

[James B.]

Daisy_May, your ideal life sounds really good. Best wishes, and great job creating a positive and solid image for your future.

 

[Jade-]

My ideal life....

I wake up in the morning and I already know what I have to do for the day....no huge notes lying around the house reminding me to wash my hair, to feed the dogs, cook, or what hours I work. There's no writing on my hands reminding me to read the notes I have left myself.....

I have no PTSD symptoms...no anxiety, no flashbacks, no hypervigilance, no suicidal thoughts, no fears, no phobias, etc. My self esteem is through the roof, I am confident and ready to conquer the world.

That would be the ideal life for me right now. Then once I get that far, I can proceed further.

What you have written sounds awesome daisy, and I hope you get what you wish for.

 

[Iam]

Great thread Daisy-May....you will make your dreams come true!

As far as where I live I have my dream home, though I could change it for a log home and add a riding arena LOL! It's not necessary though ;o)

In my ideal life, my faith in God and humanity is strong again, I have joy and am excited about the day starting.I have energy and more to spare. I feel good about myself and am happy most of the time. I truly savor and appreciate the little things in life and take the time to enjoy them. I have purpose, I am doing something that makes it a better world for others.

 

[Daisy_May]

I would like to be as mentally sound as possible. I suffered severe pmdd until last month, when my doctor put me on the progresterine-only 'mini-pill' and it has stabled me out completely; your progesterine is a feel-good, calming hormone that gets eaten up when you are stressed and turned into cortisol. So apparently I am estrogen-dominate, anyway I really, really hope those symptoms stay at bay.

My ideal life would be to be stable mentally. To feel everything I do now, but pull myself back, and not fight or flight or run away or throw up in the face of crises. I would live without flashbacks reading emails or answering the phone. I wouldn't be struck by panic attacks out of nowhere while driving home that someone, somewhere might be mad at me and scream at me or beat me up for some unknown reason. If my brain could be reprogrammed to be calm and stable and rational through thick and thin, that would be ideal.