Afraid To Post On These Forums

[NoWhereKnowWhere]

Perhaps I wasn't as clear as I could've been in the other thread.

All I meant was it crossed my mind (autistic spectrum) but that I DID NOT think that fitted you. Also that maybe crosse my mind due to me having a personal bias as I have quite a few friends who are or rather were diagnosed with Aspergers I say were as it's not an official diagnosis anymore.

All I can say is that I'm very sorry if I caused you upset. That's not what I meant to achieve.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Off topic again.

How exactly is that off topic when im replying to your reply and quote something in the OP?

 

[The Albatross]

If you want to reply to me take it to a p.c. This is Xray's thread. Not mine, not yours... His.

 

[sun seeker]

Sometimes there are things going on in my life that I don't post about, even though I desperately want reassurance about them, because I know I wouldn't be able to handle some of the responses I'd likely get. I don't blame anyone here for the fact that I can't post. It's no one's fault, just the nature of a forum full of individuals with individual opinions combined with how sensitive most of us with PTSD can get. Knowing when/what to post and when/what not to, is a way of taking care of myself. It's seeing shades of grey (maybe I can post about X but not about Y) instead of just black and white (I'm completely accepted, or everyone hates me). Those are good self-care skills to develop. You can use them anywhere in your life and they will help with emotional regulation.

@xraydave, it seems like one of the problems here might be that you are seeing "the forum" as one entity that is there to help you and isn't doing its job. Maybe it would help to pick that apart. The forum is only a group of individuals. It's for peer support. None of us are professional therapists - or if some are, that isn't their capacity here. All any of us can offer is our experience. If some people are consistently triggering you, that's what the "ignore" function is good for. Most of us here are sufferers too; others are supporters of sufferers. Either way, we may be having just as hard a time on any given day as the people whose threads we reply to.

I don't think I read your earlier thread, so I don't know what you are referring to. Not everyone who opens a thread will have all the information to continue an ongoing discussion from another thread. Again, we are individuals.

And yes, as @lostforgottensoul points out, this is not a board for psychosis, but for PTSD. And asking you whether you have found treatment is not an insult. If you look at a lot of the threads here, especially those started by new members, you will see the same question probably hundreds of times over. PTSD requires treatment. Other conditions that may or may not be PTSD also require treatment. We're suffering; we need and deserve help. There's no judgement there.

So yes... I hear you, you can't keep a thought in your head. Please find someone, not on the internet but in 3D, who can help you with that. It sounds like a serious problem - and again, there is no judgement in that. Most of us here have pretty serious problems, or we wouldn't be here.

 

[xraydave]

I didn't particularly agree, when I read it about the autism spectrum stuff and sort of saw it as "arm chair quarterbacking" sorry for that and the distress it's caused you.

Thank you. i feel like i am being heard and am not going crazy here.

I think the problem is everyone thinks I am out to do their community some level of harm, I am not. i have nothing against the community.

i'll try to work on what you said.

No you dont, but dont go blaming the community either which is what was done here:

i have nothing against this community. if i did i wouldnt be posting here to begin with. or even 'elaborating' on my experiences here.

that I DID NOT think that fitted you. Also that maybe crosse my mind due to me having a personal bias as I have quite a few friends who are or rather were diagnosed with Aspergers I say were as it's not an official diagnosis anymore.

I have no idea about the aspergers diagnosis or how helpful it would be for me. one of my closest friends has aspergers, and i told him this rant about how i may have it, and he was like 'man i just never thought you had it, but i thought were just different' lol. like it doesnt make sense with me.

also, i can't relate to any of the 'special interest' behaviours that he has, and i know a lot of ways to stop myself from doing most autistic behaviours like that. i remember bringing this up in therapy, and the psychiatrist and psychologist i met said 'i see no autistic behaviors in you to warrant testing'

 

[The Albatross]

@sun seeker said, "And yes, as @lostforgottensoul points out, this is not a board for psychosis, but for PTSD"

Personally I'm not aware of that but a mod could correct me on that as:

"PTSD and symptoms of psychosis, such as hallucinations, often co-occur. In clinical terms, PTSD is described as consisting of three clusters of symptoms: re-experiencing symptoms, avoidance symptoms and hyperarousal symptoms. However, some mental health professionals believe that the experience of psychotic symptoms should be considered as an addition to that list, given that they commonly occur among people with PTSD."
[snip]
"Psychotic Symptoms in PTSD
Researchers at the University of Manitoba, Columbia University and the University of Regina examined the data on 5,877 people from across the United States in order to determine the rates with which people with PTSD experience different psychotic symptoms.
[snip]
"The researchers also found evidence that the more PTSD symptoms a person was experiencing, the greater the likelihood that they would also experience positive psychotic symptoms."


Da link: https://www.verywell.com/relationship-between-ptsd-and-psychotic-symptoms-2797525

 

[xraydave]

@sun seeker

i hear you loud and clear . i think this is where i should probably get up and leave for a while. i think i've dealt with the ptsd issues quite well and am pretty prosocial than before i got my diagnosis. (i go out much more with friends and stuff) . but ive realized reading this, that i cannot seem to keep any string of information in my head right now, or during these couple of days ive been talking here.

i chalked it up to dissociation, but if a majority here cannot relate, maybe it's more medical than that? i dunno, i will definitely follow up on this.

@The Albatross

I think you are right. PTSD with psychosis is the diagnosis for roughly 15-64% of cases of PTSD as well.

the fact that this is not a place to talk about psychosis is something, i would not have imagined at all.

I mean , even that kid in Perks of Being A Wallflower has psychotic experiences and in that movie, his hallucinations relate directly to that of the traumatic experience, why dont people realize experiences like that, are something to be talked about here? No clue.

 

[The Albatross]

I think Xray, I would not confuse "if a majority here cannot relate" with "a majority of people who responded to me on the thread in question"... that's a very altogether different thing. A microcosm of the community if you will.... for me that would be suspect to group think.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

This is Xray's thread. Not mine, not yours... His.

And I am replying to HIS posts, I didnt write them, he did. Thank you.

Please find someone, not on the internet but in 3D, who can help you

ETA: Apprarently forgot that i agreed with this.

@xraydave you really didnt address:

i just dont like how our community here, can be so polarized to thinking 'oh these people are disordered, and these people arent'. it's just not right,

But either way, there are tons and tons and tons of info on here about disocissation; however, we are all responsible for what we write here, disocissated or not.

I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND WHY YOU DONT THINK IM HAVING THE SAME ISSUES YOU DO!

Whom said that? In the other thread I saw nothing but productive and supportive posts and ideas. How can one assume what I think? I cant assume to know what you think unless you type it. I can only go off of what you state, if i can then understand what you are stating.

And @The Albatross i understand that with PTSD can be psycosis, as there can be NUMEROUS things, but you are kidding yourself if you think that there isnt a limit to what this site can support. I am standing by what i stated, this is a PTSD site, not a psycosis supporting site and we are all responsible for what we type, whether disocissated or in a 'psycosis' state. Also blaming the forum and the community for cognative distorations does him no good.

Now that ive been blammed for going off topic when i CLEARLY was replying to something in the ORGINAL post and was NOT off topic, im out.

 

[The Albatross]

Thanks for taking the suggestion to go to PC... you're on ignore.

 

[joeylittle]

but ive realized reading this, that i cannot seem to keep any string of information in my head right now, or during these couple of days ive been talking here. i chalked it up to dissociation, but if a majority here cannot relate, maybe it's more medical than that? i dunno, i will definitely follow up on this.

Actually, seems like a good description of dissociation to me. It also helps me understand why you're having a hard time keeping track of the details from thread to thread - which, of course, is a PTSD symptom, and there's no prohibition against writing about it, venting about it, asking for help with it - it's great that you can recognize it.

There are a few things you might find useful:
Primary Cognitive Distortions - this is an article on identifying cognitive distortions. They just come along with PTSD. It's helpful to look for the distortions in one's thinking, because they point to things that we can work on right away, and get some relief from. That's my experience, anyway, and it might help you.

The other is the Trauma Diaries forums - when you just want to write stuff out, and aren't specifically asking for anyone else to have an opinion about it, a trauma diary is a great place to do that. It's also there to reflect on and write about the issues that are unresolved for you, relating to the trauma(s) or things that have spun off from them. Link Removed

 

[The Albatross]

You don't have to take it to a trauma dairy if you don't want to... just sayin'. There's hundreds of threads about much less.